[[ Everything happens for a reason ]]

[[ Everything happens for a reason ]]

Blame no one.when you gain sth, you will lose sth. That isnt call unfair. That is fair.

Whenever I missed a bus or whatever.. i would tell myself.. probably someone in the bus who argue with me for nothing.. or I'll meet some insanes.. or the bus met an accident.. Some would probably thinks i might have been consoling myself.. but I believe it happens for a reason.. God didnt allow me to get to do sth.. He has his own reasons.. I wasnt a christian but i believe in god..

Like for today.. It was a crucial day.. havin been thru ups and downs of life.. Just this day..And look what happens..

I didnt wanna go school.. I was holy hell tired.. I couldnt even pick myself up moreover with tt stupid irritating sickness of mine.. I told my maid im not going for school.. in the end i went.. responsibility.. besides i forgot to bring tt form of mine yesterday and tcher needs by today..

It wasnt exactly a smooth day for me.. Oh btw the form is for ur subject combinations.. I wanna take physics econs and maths c. My physics wasnt approved because i got a B4 for combined science and chem pulled me down.. tcher talked to me.. She needed the forms urgently by 12pm sharp.. Its her duty.. i know tt.. It was already 11.30 when i asked the Physics h.o.d and i got rejected simply bcos i did not have the report book with me. He had his reasons too.

Miss aisha was askin me to take it easy and choose another subject.. what could i choose..? between all the subjects - history geog and lit? no way am i going to do lit again.. And i hate memorising work.. And history is out of the question.. I faced with the last choice.. geography.....

And i failed geog terribly.. I hated geog so much.. And now the only way out is geog.. I broke down.. Why am i forced to the corner to take such a subject i detest so much..? but i had no other choices..

I was repeating "be strong.. shiping is strong" in my mind.. and i believe god didnt want me to take physics because he had his own reasons.. Perhaps i would flung it in As.. I keep giving all sort of reasons to console myself.. It didnt really work well.. I still broke down.. broke down so hard..

I really didnt wanna cry in front of other people.. but i couldnt control.. I didnt like tt sort of eyes on me.. I hid in one corner and consult myself.. In the end.. Kim wee went to me and we talked.. He wasnt tt bad actually.. and he was even more devastated than i do.. Why should i be crying in the first place..? I am really glad for his company during the tormenting hour.. Eventually i cooled down and went back to the library to find the rest.. They saw.. They knew from my reddened eyes..

Why do shiping seems so weak? so vulnerable..? And I'm taking the first 3 months so seriously.. I really do not want to take geography.. Is it good or bad? Something worthy of rejoicing over my seriousness?

Yes and Miss aisha told me i should take things easilly and should open myself up. Okie. I admit I'm a lil stubborn.. In fact a lot.. I really couldnt believe dere wasnt anyway out.. It had been really long since i broke down..

Everyone told me its only the first three months but it wasnt for me.. I don wanna lose out after the first 3 months anyway.. I think i am too worked up somehow..

The rest told me to appeal.. It gave me hope.. I was afraid about the dateline.. It was already way past 12pm.. I went to Miss aisha and She really couldnt help.. She is telling me the same things again.. Take it easy perhaps i could score well in geography..

In the end.. I went up to the vice principal..Mr wong.. He was nice.. And he asked to go home and take my report book for Mr charles goh to look thru.. I was afraid tt if i went home and come back.. Even if he doesnt approve.. It was useless so i called home to check my grades.. and want to ask him whether is it alrite.. And my dad was at home coincidentally.. And i din get to see him.. I waited for very long time and in the end i asked my dad if he can bring down for me.. And he did.. I really had a wonderful father.. I should really appreciate tt instead for complaining of him being naggy.. He didnt asked why i need it for or wad.. And he brought down for me.. when he reached YJ.. He didnt even ask.. He just handed to me.. He knows its important to me.. He understands.. And naturally i told him..He didnt say much.. jus ask me faster go and see the H.o.d. I went back to the staff room and i had waited for him almost an hour? Mr Goh is really very busy.. and in the end.. I went back and saw him.. I told him and he was like kinda impressed.. I went through his boss.. and he say i pressure him with his boss.. hahs and he is a really nice tcher.. He did approved luckilly..

And i believe god set me for a test. I believe god has his reasons. Perhaps i would failed geography badly. It was actually consolation for myself.

I called Miss aisha and apologised.. I caused a lot of problems.. And she was saying shes glad im takin it seriously and perserve but i still take things too hard.. hmmm..

I'm adamant and firm. You can call it stubborn.

I wasnt actually that fond in physics.. But thru this.. I think I will rmb this really hard time appealing for it.. and so even more wanting to excel in physics..

I didnt want to make a thank list or a thank speech..I really appreciate the help.Thanks guys.Thx dAdddEeee.

And guess wad?

dAddddEeee involved in car crash and he didnt went to work which is why he is at home.. and which is why he can hand me my report book.. He wouldnt be at home during normal days..

See guys? Everything happens with a reason.. I'm relieved he didnt get hurt.. and if he does.. I rather i take geography.. When u gain sth.. u lose sth.. perhaps same with the PPC curve in economics. Daddy lose money but he gained her daughter's appreciation and Im really really very happy tt i can take physics instead of geog..

It was like a miracle for me.

I believe in miracles.

I do.