FUCK

FUCK FUGGING

carnt they jus shuddup.

they make a mess out of my life.

they make me terrible.

freak. a bunch of freakks.

sad to say my life's a tragedy.

My family is the tragedy.

I'm the tragedy.

I'm the main lead in my story.

Everything gets into my way.

They dont seem to understand.

I dont wanna go home.

All you guys do is either complain nag and yag.

might as well FUCK OFF

get out. get out. freak.

i cant take this anymore.

jus shuddup.

I dont wanna go home.

A bunch of freakkers.

I dont wanna go home.

Its unsafe.

Its sad.

Its so tragic.

My life's a tragedy.

In my story. I died so horribly.

Its not loving.

Its my hell. honestly it is.

They always bring me down.

down to the most bottom of my mood.

I dont wanna go home.

now you know. the reasons for making up reasons which seems excuses to you.

cos of us.

we are a tragedy.

Today i wrote this book.

The tragedy of she and her family.

seems happy yet seems unhappy.

happy is totally happy.

unhappy is totally unhappy.

I shed the tears.

the blood.

it never heals.

it gets more serious.

dont ever take it out ALL ON ME.

you got it?

DONT EVER TAKE IT OUT ALL ON ME.

EVERYTHING SEEMS TO BE MY FAULT.

all sorts of emotions now.

angry. sad. unhappy. wronged. freak. messed up. disturbed.

dont blame me.

DONT BLAME ME.

I may seems to be very emotionally unstable now. Its wrong of me to say this kind of things. I should be grateful to everything. dont claim im senseless or claim im immature. or even im spoilt or whatever whatever. when it comes, you will behave the same way i do.

frustrated. exasperated.

understand. dont tell me i should not behave this way and that. the fact that they are driving me mad.

Family portrait. We dont have one. We have an illusion family portrait. where the damages are underneath it. behind the photo.

the tears. the blood.

you never seems to know.

Being so senseless or unreasonable.

i apologise.

but i dont regret whatever i said.

I still dont wanna go home.