garden festival.

[garden festival]

sometimes after so long.
we'll all feel so dead.

i love the sound of rain.
i love the smell of rain.
i love rain.

friday was whackiest.
the smashed cake party.
it was super fun. i never laugh like that before.
rfc rocks.

whats wrong with me?
forever attitude.
im sorry.

sometimes i really feel so odd..
so sad so depressed..
livin in this world is hell..
i look at myself..
im a tragedy..
i messed up my life.

everything everyone everywhere.
making it worst as possible.

i cant make it through promos.
what the hell is wrong with me?

what the hell are you waiting for?

Tears flow easilly now. very easilly.
I dont know why but..

feeling so dead.

cant get enough of garden festival.
thats perhaps my favourite song out of jay songs.
love yuan you hui like siao.

And then i remembered him.
Why is he having an impact on me?
I froze whenever i see jay.
too similar.
it jus made me recall something.

i look back. how foolish.
im so hurt.

compare now and then.
together with someone is more hurting than one sided love.
the pain is unimaginable.
one day im gonna be right.

where are you?
i thought you are supposed to cease my pain.

im tired. back for some sleep.
not going school today.
really drained.
i'll do my revision.

oh god.. i miss you like crazy..

people around me.. can you all be more real?
sometimes, got so crazy.
forgive me.

i wanna run away.
i wanna escape.
somebody take me away.
i don care who.
jus take me away.
i feeling so torn
feeling so lost.

tired of this world.
tired of this life.
tired of everything.
tired of fake smiles.