colours and lights

somehow i've got different feelings today. like you lost some kind of feeling you had before. and you can never get it back.

really am grateful to my tyar, the bestest friend that i can ever find in the world. she spent effort for a surprise and it didnt turn out bad at all. i was really touched to see all her efforts and thanks so much for my day. we went down ytd night to play sparkles, lanterns and candles. mid autumn festival. i love the carrying lantern and walk all the way to the swing part. the haze didnt keep us away. thanks for your stupid lie as usual. thanks old pal. thanks hedi.

and next up, nanny. i know you spend great effort thinking of what to get for me too. i know that feeling. thanks so much. and i really love whatever you gave me. thanks for making today my day. thanks for being there as always and being so worried over me. thanks for giving me such a wonderful day. thanks always. for whatever things you have done and every single thing. somehow that funny feeling didnt turn quite right today. i actually was thinking i never wanted to know my present. the feeling of damn curious really make me feel different. feelings i never had before. the special one forever.

and my bestest friend in YJ, pei! thanks for getting such a wonderful gift for me. thanks for being me and knowing what would i like. and the effort you've gone to. i really love the card from you. it really warms my heart. really dont know what to say but a big thank you. i'm really touched. as always dear friend.

thanks president for working 28.5714285714285714285714287142857 hours for the chip-in.

thanks desmond, denise, ck, monk, roger for the stuffs and chocolates. i know you guys still love me even though im so irritating. hahahahahahahahahah! i love you guys too! =) thanks for the sincerity and the effort.

thanks rfc for being rfc.

thanks mum and dad. mum for being the backstage crew. who silently gave me 50bucks for spending and allowing me to be out whole day and she's still smiling at home just hoping that i would have fun. thanks dad for the most expensive present ever. to allow me for the penang trip and the 400bucks and the fetching me to the bus stop always.

thanks brother and da sao. thanks brother for that miserable chocolate stupid shit. hahahah thanks.

thanks carmen and zm, for the regards and wellwishes.
thanks gera for not forgetting me.
thanks meryl, pearlene for talking to me always.
thanks bimbos, gary and christine for the damn cute birthday card.
thanks jiahui for the dying candles.

thanks everyone for coming out today.
thanks everyone for trying to come out today.
thanks everyone for wishing me.
thanks thanks.

despite the haze, my life's still as colourful and bright.
but the haze feels so in paradise. like i'm flying.

i'll be the greatest fan of your life.
i'll be.
never revealing that day.
be captivated.

and yes i had my Ben and Jerry's. =)
i'm eighteeeeeeeeeeeeeeen now.