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Hello people, again, apologies due to the lack of blogging. I know it sounds crap but i didnt blog yesterday coz i was totally down and out. Not because of me being lethargic or what so ever. It was because i had my telephone skills which was quite mediocre. But the kick to the teeth was my LCOMM results. It was my case reading test and i scored 18/50. OMG! Its my law subject and i did it oh so badly. =( I cant even remember what i did yesterday. All i could think off is i followed naz to harbourfround to collect some free gift and ate at macdonald feeling dejected with my results. Sigh, i need to buck up! I'm stupid in english. i cant even construct a sentence without any grammar error. And MAX who is a slacker scored 45/50. Cool, he has shown his true blood of ACS genius freaks.

Then today was econs. I told the class if i pass i will jump down coz i know i did badly. And indeed i didnt jump. Coz i scored 78/100. It makes me feel better at the least but i expected a 90? Hmm cant have high expectations but NO. i must score these 'tests'. Its the small things that add up to the a whole figure, not the whole figure itself. Sigh. ANd max again scored 80. Teck wee got 83, Pamela 100 and TIng ni 96. All so high and clever. Im one of the worst. I wanna do well in law, but can i? Should i regret my choice of turning down soccer for law? I really think so. But its too late, im interested in law full blooded. My dream of soccer is dream but it runs through me too. I cant do it. She is my everything, without her i feel lost; shiping. Sigh. I dont know what else can i do now. Inside me is killing me. Slowly.

ruzaini