this christmas.

I'm not sure why or whats wrong.
I am feeling uncomfortable all day long.
Days never seemed so long before.
Hours never seemed so long before.
Even seconds never seemed so long before.
and im leading a ZBL life with rfcians and friends all day long.
Why am i even feeling so ZBL?
waiting waiting and waiting.
Maybe i got no work nowadays and everyday like some jobless shit waiting for one day and one day to pass by.

I feel quite helpless at times.
Maybe i do need somewhere to land on right now.

My life like quite meaningless.
maybe pinning for christmas to come.
that really really sweet and romantic day.
dont know why but it made people feel happy as well.

waiting waiting and waiting.

so far yet so near.
we had closen up the distance.
you're like in my heart.
i can almost feel you.

distance is you walk past me.
i like this sentence a lot because its very true.
it isnt just what million miles apart away
but when someone near yet cant feel you..
thats distance.

Theres many things i want to do this christmas.