1983年小巷12月晴朗

I am drunk. i feel so much like giving up. this world is so complicated. i am so helpless. why am i so useless. i cant even get anything right. why is it so unfair. you never get appreciated no matter what you do and you have to find something somehow to console yourself every single time. i dont know what should i do. what can i do. how now? i am going nuts. its so unfair. its so terrible that you have no where to vent it out. and you feel so much like breaking down. i dont want anyone to console me anymore. can i just explode. if i explode, i'll hurt people around me. if i dont, i'll be very upset.