WATERS

nothing particular came to my mind.
was upset. was over. was delighted. was over.

do i appear

theres a thousand things i hate but i couldnt relieve them. for the simplest reason, i couldnt. I got through many stuffs. even the most mean stuffs. this year's fruitful, painful and hard. i came along all of them. people just widen my thinking. i found a group of people that maybe made life so much lighter to go through. maybe not found. maybe just build stronger ties and found for a few of them. for things that they might not know, its absolutely enough for them to be just there.

sometimes i think im tired enough. i couldnt think clearly. or maybe think things too clearly. sometimes before problems surface, im thinking of how to avoid it or maybe solve it. im living in an environment too hard to be true. mockery.

met up with carmen after ages. had a really long talk with her. many things came across. life and relationships. it never ends. here, its hard to plant my thoughts down. i never capture them.

i'm hoping for a next year. a year so much better than this year. a year full of hardships that allow everyone to get by together.

the materialism. i never like this year. other than holidays. I'll be many times more dilligent.


shut.