PARANOIA

sports and gym seems to be our top interests nowadays. after throwing all the books aside, everything seems so relaxed. the fast-paced tensed up life seems to be gone. only for the J2s. I really hope that it ends fast. so we can share the carefree life, like once before.

sometimes, life's so contradicting. i hate contradictions. but i just simply cant make up my mind. yes im fickle. sigh. for that, i always seem to get stuck easilly. maybe i should try to play pretend. maybe its better for me.

I think its my turn to be on medication. maybe i should take some anti-paranoia pills.

if i lay here, if i just lay here
would you lay with me and just forget the world

if ever a day comes, if ever i couldnt take it anymore
i would have the urge to leave and never return