radio
hadnt been here for quite some time. really had a great day today. although there were tears and emo times. i guess the laughter covers it all up. went to east coast park with the whole gang. pei, roger, shengyu, xuanyi, kemp, nicholas, desmond, soonkuey, jwo and meryl (she skipped school sshhhh) and pearlene didnt turn up! oh yes weijun came over. (sorry weijun!)
ecp is really beautiful somehow. hadnt been there for damn long. i was left alone by myself to cool and calm down. it didnt get worst at all. i went back to them all back to normal. i guess i admit it had died on me after 6 years. im sorry guys for shocking you all. i really couldnt take it that it had just died when it accompany me through nights for 6 years. and moreover, its priceless. someone special just got it for me. somehow i didnt get what a crybaby should get. yeah and perhaps it made me stand on myself. im supposed to get very upset and missing for hours. but i didnt. ecp just make me dont feel like spoiling my day. thanks all.
Highlights of the day?
1) when we reached, we ate pei's mum bee hoon. the luncheon meat got stuck somehow -.-
2) we played dai dee and desmond, sk and roger were 3 against 1 and they disturbed me >.<
3) the rain came. my radio got wet not because of the rain )=
4) beach soccer. its damn fun. the best moments =D
5) swimming with kemp, monk and pei. i won the 2! and pei was dragged down the pool for one minute and the guy came to say pool is closed for the day ;)
6) learning soccer from roger. guess he got fed up. sorry! =7) memories of OBS came back. we lay on the mat, talk and watch the night sky. =]
8) walking to get a cab. trying to carry meryl on her back. was laughing like mad. the blowing of bubbles and everything =Ppp
so they all went meryl house for stayover. saddening. when can i ever do that. sighh. it will sure be damn fun. papa, when will i be able to stay over? the reason is clear; i just like hanging out with them and at night is the craziest moments.
somehow i thought about physics and it didnt affect me a lot. probably ecp doesnt seem that sad afterall. somehow 1 month this time last year, ecp looks very sad.
but im really damn upset.
would you understand?
dont make me feel worse anymore.
no more radio.
the nights would be quiet.
complicating thoughts. thoughts that almost kill me. the feelings came like a deja vu. weird and complicated. i still didnt figure it out. everything was just so sudden. i didnt have time to figure out. i guess im a very impatient and rash person. i seldom think much and go with the flow. its killing me. i felt what i thought. is that really true. i dont understand. why do i have to make life complicating for myself. but i couldnt control my thought. i dont know what exactly is it all about. what about myself. what am i thinking. why do i feel so. why do i feel like i felt differently. why. i couldnt stop myself to think. sophiscated thoughts. thats the 3rd thing that is in my list of worries. why couldnt i exert some self-control. to prevent myself to hurt. pointless. i cant figure out what am i thinking and feeling.
ecp is really beautiful somehow. hadnt been there for damn long. i was left alone by myself to cool and calm down. it didnt get worst at all. i went back to them all back to normal. i guess i admit it had died on me after 6 years. im sorry guys for shocking you all. i really couldnt take it that it had just died when it accompany me through nights for 6 years. and moreover, its priceless. someone special just got it for me. somehow i didnt get what a crybaby should get. yeah and perhaps it made me stand on myself. im supposed to get very upset and missing for hours. but i didnt. ecp just make me dont feel like spoiling my day. thanks all.
Highlights of the day?
1) when we reached, we ate pei's mum bee hoon. the luncheon meat got stuck somehow -.-
2) we played dai dee and desmond, sk and roger were 3 against 1 and they disturbed me >.<
3) the rain came. my radio got wet not because of the rain )=
4) beach soccer. its damn fun. the best moments =D
5) swimming with kemp, monk and pei. i won the 2! and pei was dragged down the pool for one minute and the guy came to say pool is closed for the day ;)
6) learning soccer from roger. guess he got fed up. sorry! =7) memories of OBS came back. we lay on the mat, talk and watch the night sky. =]
8) walking to get a cab. trying to carry meryl on her back. was laughing like mad. the blowing of bubbles and everything =Ppp
so they all went meryl house for stayover. saddening. when can i ever do that. sighh. it will sure be damn fun. papa, when will i be able to stay over? the reason is clear; i just like hanging out with them and at night is the craziest moments.
somehow i thought about physics and it didnt affect me a lot. probably ecp doesnt seem that sad afterall. somehow 1 month this time last year, ecp looks very sad.
but im really damn upset.
would you understand?
dont make me feel worse anymore.
no more radio.
the nights would be quiet.
complicating thoughts. thoughts that almost kill me. the feelings came like a deja vu. weird and complicated. i still didnt figure it out. everything was just so sudden. i didnt have time to figure out. i guess im a very impatient and rash person. i seldom think much and go with the flow. its killing me. i felt what i thought. is that really true. i dont understand. why do i have to make life complicating for myself. but i couldnt control my thought. i dont know what exactly is it all about. what about myself. what am i thinking. why do i feel so. why do i feel like i felt differently. why. i couldnt stop myself to think. sophiscated thoughts. thats the 3rd thing that is in my list of worries. why couldnt i exert some self-control. to prevent myself to hurt. pointless. i cant figure out what am i thinking and feeling.
posted by gardenfestival at 2:00 AM
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home