break down and cry =|

Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.

It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.

In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.

When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.
Ohh yeah, break down and cry.

Now I see, what love means.

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somethings. so obvious that no one noticed.
simple things.

where the Love Laws laid down who shoud be loved. and how. and how much.

i've been thinking of it which i have absolutely no idea why. it just keep going in my mind. back to god of small things. back to shaking.

maybe history is negative in that novel. but i think reality is damn worst off. damn reality. present is worst than history. we're all not stuck in history but we're all stuck in present. with commitments and responsibilities. we cannot live like people in history that they're carefree and they have freedom to do what they like. sometimes things are not that bad too. everything is controversial. i'm contraddicting. so just let me off. very true. this few sentences.

Ammu's shaking because of history.
Now, im shaking because of present.

i give up.

We spend our whole lives searching for all the things we think we want and never really knowing what we have

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i'm going bagpacked. to find things. things that are waiting for me to find them someday. i'm gonna roam around the world. running in my thoughts. going thru cities kingdoms and countries. conquering the wonders of the world. one day. i believe i will find it. it may be a sense of undescribable feeling. that no words can ever fit in. but whatever it is, i will find it someday. it is still waiting for me to find it. i wanna escape badly. from reality's crutches. from present's burdens. will anyone take me away. i just want it simple. maybe i'll be some eskimo fishing at the north of the earth, and i'll be watching over penguins. and i'll meet santa and rudolph. and i will be simplified.