i think i give it up. its not worth the effort or time. even though i hate miserable times like now, i hate the times i am left alone more. like you watch me bleed and you never bother. its useless. the disconnected number i still call. please leave. go away like you always did. i'm so glad that i dont have to look at it for now. cos it really fucking irritates me. i hate being seen as stupid and dumb. i could have not bothered but i just dont feel good. now i regretted. because i dont felt appreciated at all. why couldnt you at least - cos i am down. cos i called the disconnected number again and again and it never show any signal. cos you used to be there. mentally but not anymore now. and not anymore. one day - and you wont be there anymore. both. and that day i couldnt take it, i just leave this town and never return again. walking out on you.

stop telling me useless stuffs like that cos i'll never listen to you again. agony and pain to the heart. things that i heard doesnt reinforce your actions. i hate those times. i hate times like now and i swear one day-

please take me away from you;

heavens take me with you and set the earth raining once again