[[ Initial D ]]

[[ Initial D ]]

It wasnt what everyone else expected. but for me.. I think its nice. hahha!.. Jay is handsome in dere. so is edison and shawn. its omg! hahha! And its super funny. I carnt resist and went to watch!!..

I realised something.. I kept studying for the past weeks or days.. realise not even a single thing goes into my mind.. and jus now i suddenly felt motivated and went to study and could finish a chapter in an hour!!

I'm drained. really drained. I dont feel like going for school. dont feel like working. feel like slacking all my entire life.. drifter.. dreamer.. any rich man wants a god daughter? I'm sick of life. Just give me money and plenty of money.. and then I buy all the things i like and watch movies from dawn to dusk. and to go on holiday all around the world. Its hell to peservere and peservere and to pursue my dreams.. dreams are far.. I rather dream about my dreams..

Block test really sucks. I hate it!! oh freak.

I dreamt of General Paper yesterday. It was all testing my vocabulary jus like primary school english. and then i dont have time to complete because it has 101 pages with font 6. Horrible dream.

And I dreamt i cried. in frustration. of work and everything.

This whole lot of stress only make me slack which i could found no reason to it. I'm getting complaining.. ok. im ageing!!

Life is so hectic.. Its killing me!! yes yes!! ~I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare!! I dont wanna grow up! Simple Plan songs can be to the xtreme. Either you find them meaningful or you find them complaining. For me, its perfect.

Am listening to Jay Chou's Yi Lu Xiang Bei all the while. carnt get enough of it. it is moody.. full of grief.. probably great and perfect to my mood. The starting part of now you know its quite sad too but towards the chorus.. it is just off..

I'm more and more complaining. complaining about every single thing i can. mentally disturbed. frustrating!

Freak. Block test.

Nowadays perhaps due to the stress i'm getting.. I'm more of running away from everything.. yes that would meant I'm an escapist. Escapism. And tend to dream more. A mix of escapist and dreamer. I tries to avoid everything i can. minimize the tiniest conflict..

I'm hopeless. Dont sighs. I know.

Stress actually is nothing. When you study.. you gets stress.. there is stress in everyone everything you do.. but the most ironic part is that when you do nothing you get more stress.. hmm.. wondering what nonsense i'm trying to say.. I meant if you do nothing.. you lose out.. and from dere you tries to catch up.. you're gonna be more and more stress.. the extreme of stress..

and its really ironic because shiping's theory and shiping knows it and she still do nothing..

Wasnt really used to it now.. but i know i'll have to adapt someday.. I carnt be selfish.. Sometimes this thing still keeps on going on in my mind.. I tried to control it.. and sometimes I jus give up.. being alone really can make all sort of emotions out from you.. but sometimes we hav the need to do so.. we need some personal space to think over things but for an escapist and dreamer.. the best is not to think of anything..

Probably today's entry doesnt seem like me.. crapping.. i dont know why but the flow jus came out like that..

spastic. gettin a lil' out.

I wanna caught all the movies.. A lot like love.. Batman Begins.. Ice Princess.. Fantastic 4.. Charlie and the chocolate factory.. Its like nuts.. movie freak! Where on earth i get all the money.. and dere's a whole lot of things i wanna buy.. so I'm here trying to advertise myself!!

-A fillial daughter
-Will make your day
-Can sing and dance (if you dont mind your house collapse)
-Knows how to cook instant noodles plus egg
-Stressball
-Let you experience the happiness that you never experience before
-Know a lot of lame jokes
-Can crack you up

and most importantly..
-Teach you how to spend money with the fastest way

I'm really going crazy.. dont know why.. hahha~

oh yes.. went past Fullerton hotel.. stand in awe.. And saw quite a lot of married couples.. suddenly feel like marrying!! hahha totally off.. den i looked at paulin.. and den i told her feel like marrying!! HAHHA! den we end up laughing..

okies. not funny.

And its getting a bit tensed up in the royal family right now.. other than my brother and me whom were perfectly fine as we are still crazy.. my mum a bit ehh.. feelin frustrated.. she only shout scream scold at me when she sees me.. whats wrong? whats wrong now? maybe she feeling low at these times.. so i jus lent her my ears.. >.
Oh for some duno wad reason she jus woke up jus now and grumble about me not sleeping and saying our electric bill very high liao.. for my empress.. other than nagging, scolding, yagging, complaining, screaming, shouting, scolding and scolding.. I still love her.. hahha thats lame enough..

Enough freakin' outta here! =Ppp