year 2005

year 2005.
what should i say?
i retained but probably its still the best year of my life.
because of the best things that had happened.

especially rfc. and the 3 girls i known - joanne, ruis, amee.
and all my close friends that stood by me always- gera, hedi and carmen.

i dont know why. i wanted to write what i feel so much but i still cant bcos i know there would be people who read my blog and i cant write freely.

to a someone, it wasnt me who changed. it wasnt me who never liked you before. i did really devote all the true me in it. but somehow i realised it shouldnt be like this since dont know when. so you should start to give some thinking. we're never suitable. maybe you will realised it someday if you meet someone you really feel comfortable with and someone who thinks what you are thinking about. and most importantly, someone who you dont have to purposely go to accomodate with and yet we can be ourselves. so jus forget the past. hmmms if you ever still read my blog, yeah. and i really dont care anymore. just hope you feel better.

to another someone, look beyond yourself. dont hold on, let go might be some better way out. don need to act hero, just stay simple. whatever it is, i dont know about you but if its me, i would let go because i would wan the other party to be happy. perhaps, opening up would be better for you. open up to many many things. you will realised that even raining is a happy season. everything would be happy instead of black-coloured or red-coloured. the world is so much happier and you would be happier.

can you all just wished for my happiness?

i dont want to care anymore. but still, i want to consider people's feelings. but love is selfish isnt it. and can you all let me stay happy a bit? dont tell me how you people are feeling anymore. i wished i can dont care but still it will affect me bcos everyone in this world are supposed to be happy.

i found my happiness. found someone whom i really want to find.
this is the only wish i had for 2006.
i wanna stay happy. thats all.

my last post about the unfinished stuff in 2005.
those unsaid unspoken stuff that i wanted to mention but didnt.

i dont wanna think anymore. i don wan to be oblivious to what is happening around. it hurts you but it hurts me as well. cant you all let me be happy?

hahha okay! thats set!

i want to bu guan! bu zai hu!
i will be myself from this moment on.
i wouldnt purposely tried to hide myself.
and if you still consider you guys as gentlemen,
then know wad to do already!!

i found someone whom i really like. =D
and fireworks never seemed so beautiful before!

and im enjoying my simple life.

2006 here i come!
though i can never forget the people in 2005,
but i still welcome a new 2006.