yellow

you know sometimes things werent the way it was. although most things were. and i can never find my place sometimes. i never like to feel out of place and still sticking on. but in reality, this happens always. i never like many things. never like to keep stuck in some things always. i like to run off and move on. but it all appears to be stuck. i can never walk out of this place. i still see the same old tree. same old flower. same old X. when can i walk out and to reach the garden festival.

and brother, how i wish to be like you sometimes. though friends were a different term to you and to me. but sometimes its like better off. i dont need much too. but i believe you walk a longer way than me. sometimes, more harsh more tough. but because of many things, you learn so much. and now you're so much stronger than me. like i never got thru things easilly. because i dont know how to walk away. to walk out. to disregard trivial things. and in fact, you had been always stronger than me. the things i gone thru were nothing. because it was as if i'm still walking in the shadow of it. because i am afraid. for some things that will mark you for life. it will follow me for life and the only way is to overcome it. but it takes time. and i wonder how long will i take. i came along only to stop because i fear.

some things are so ironic. feel so comical. i'm really amused.

i feel so. i feel so much. feel the same way i felt before. those feelings those thoughts were familiar. it aint good definitely. but you know i dont mean it. but its so hard to let you know.

missundaztood.

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah, they were all yellow.

the stars shine for me; i know.