flaws.

argh what am i doing nowadays? i hadnt been doing any work or revision. i am so going to die. sighh but i feel so tired nowadays. oh my god. shiping!!! focus!!!!

drained. almost going to be completely drained.

and i am flawed.

too much. too bad. i seem to lose myself. the real me. i hate to be an adult. or rather a young adult. i am not cleaning it well. yes i over commit. thats the word. over commit. till the extent i lose myself. and blinded from everything. i cant sense. i cant feel. whats going into me? whats with me? i wanna be a kid. all i have to do is to cry. people would care. people would give me the attention. when you grow up, sometimes, what you do, people dont really bother. it doesnt matter to anyone. sometimes, i dug out my heart totally. giving you my true heart but things dont work the way i think. who would pay attention to my truth? yeah and like the leadership camp. you give people your heart and people just stabbed and then you have many many wounds and you put back into ur body. yes just like that. probably. a comparison. heart to heart talk means a heart and another heart. but after sometime the heart got the signal. it might be late.

hope dangles on a string. like slow redemption. winding in. winding out.