waters.
I wanna go swimming. go jump into the cooling waters.
like the feeling of swimming in the morning with a quiet pool. feel at ease. calm and cool. the waters is all mine. but i had not swim for like 800 yrs. because everytime i really feel like going. i really wan to go. i never wake up early enough to go.
its quite good. i can focus on my thoughts. been thinking too much these days. my thoughts are all messed up. i need to calm down and rearrange them.
i feel so dumb recently. i've been craving for water these few days. i feel extremely thirsty and i told my mum. my mum asked me to be careful later got diabetes. and this word struck me. i felt so scared. im so afraid that im going to die. i will be condemned with this sickness. i checked up enyclopedias about symptoms on diabetes and etc. fear.
and then i went for a blood test that costs me $5.25 to ease myself. i felt damn dumb. my glucose level was not even high. and the most ridiculous thing is that 90% of the patients are over the age of like 45. and im only 17. no wonder the doctors stared at me when i stood blindly at the labs. i think i'll be a joke of toapayoh polyclinic. but at least im sugar free =D
i love my mummy. feels weird but thats what i feel like now. i talk to her more and more nowadays. the cutest mum. and her favourite sentence is "if you want to find a boyfriend, dont find someone like ur dad. " which i think its funny.
its okay. its okay to be angry.
sometimes. even you find yourself unreasonable. its alright, shiping. people do have times they feel the lowest. just cool down. calm down. everything's gonna be fine. yeah. believe.
like the feeling of swimming in the morning with a quiet pool. feel at ease. calm and cool. the waters is all mine. but i had not swim for like 800 yrs. because everytime i really feel like going. i really wan to go. i never wake up early enough to go.
its quite good. i can focus on my thoughts. been thinking too much these days. my thoughts are all messed up. i need to calm down and rearrange them.
i feel so dumb recently. i've been craving for water these few days. i feel extremely thirsty and i told my mum. my mum asked me to be careful later got diabetes. and this word struck me. i felt so scared. im so afraid that im going to die. i will be condemned with this sickness. i checked up enyclopedias about symptoms on diabetes and etc. fear.
and then i went for a blood test that costs me $5.25 to ease myself. i felt damn dumb. my glucose level was not even high. and the most ridiculous thing is that 90% of the patients are over the age of like 45. and im only 17. no wonder the doctors stared at me when i stood blindly at the labs. i think i'll be a joke of toapayoh polyclinic. but at least im sugar free =D
i love my mummy. feels weird but thats what i feel like now. i talk to her more and more nowadays. the cutest mum. and her favourite sentence is "if you want to find a boyfriend, dont find someone like ur dad. " which i think its funny.
its okay. its okay to be angry.
sometimes. even you find yourself unreasonable. its alright, shiping. people do have times they feel the lowest. just cool down. calm down. everything's gonna be fine. yeah. believe.
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