01042006'

went over to hedi's house this morning and heard a few couple songs and i thought it was really good. currently quite like those kind of songs. we slacked around and time flies. maybe i cant really concentrate on my work during weekends.

i'm building my momentum. slowly. things would get better. studying became one of my hobby. especially when im in school. those breaks seem quite right actually. hmmm probably the late time table isnt a bad thing. life seems so balanced with schoolwork cca friends and... perfect probably. hmmm but i hadnt been catching up with carmen and gera for quite some time.. especially gera who went practically mia-ed. =P but im glad we're meeting soon. though hadnt got much time but i try my best alright guys.

i'm supposed to be in bed. im feeling tired but dont feel like sleeping. into this few songs that hedi introed:

Pearl Jam - Last kiss

Oh where, oh where, can my baby be?
The Lord took her away from me.
She's gone to heaven so I've got to be good,
So I can see my baby when I leave this world.

We were out on a date in my daddy's car,
We hadn't driven very far.
There in the road straight ahead,
A car was stalled, the engine was dead.
I couldn't stop, so I swerved to the right,
I'll never forget the sound that night.
The screaming tires, the busting glass,
The painful scream that I heard last.

When I woke up, the rain was falling down,
There were people standing all around.
Something warm flowing through my eyes,
But somehow I found my baby that night.
I lifted her head, she looked at me and said;
"Hold me darling just a little while."
I held her close I kissed her - our last kiss,
I found the love that I knew I had missed.
Well now she's gone even though I hold her tight,
I lost my love, my life that night.

Uncle kracker - Follow me

You don't know how you met me
You don't know why
You can't turn around and say goodbye
All you know is when I'm with you, I make you free
And swim through your veins like a fish in the sea
I'm singin

Follow me everthing is allright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you
Want to leave I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me

I'm not worried bout the ring you wear
Cause as long as I know one knows than nobody can care
You're feelin guilty and I'm well aware
But you dont look ashamed and baby I don't care
I'm singin

Follow me everthing is allright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if you
Want to leave I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me

Won't give you money
I can't give you the sky
Your better off if you don't ask why
I'm not the reason that you go astray
And we'll be alright if you don't ask me stay

Follow me everthing is allright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if youWant to leave I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me

Lifehouse- Blind

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this timeI never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me dies when I let you go


Bowling for soup - A-hole

When I came home my stuff was on the lawn
I thought she was happy, but I was wrong
The note she left it took me by surprise
Said I’ve turned into, some other guy
The things she said that she gave up for me
She says it was a waste of time

Guess I don’t really know, what I was thinking
Would’ve thought we would float, but we kept sinking
Things were so goodBut you were in love, with some other guy
He looked just like me, but I make you cry,
You know I don’t mean to, I’m just an asshole sometimes

I never saw myself as being alone
And maybe that was my problem, cuz now she’s gone
And I can’t help but think of how things could be (how things could be)
And I hope she’s happy, happy with out me
And all the things she gave up for me,
I took for granted time after time

Guess I don’t really know, what I was thinking
Would’ve thought we would float, but we kept sinking
Things were so goodBut you were in love, with some other guy
He looked just like me, but I make you cry,
You know I don’t mean to, I’m just an asshole sometimes

And please don’t think I’m complaining
I was just happy to have her for a time
And if you see her tell her I said”hello and that I’m doing just fine”

Guess I don’t really know, what I was thinking
Would’ve thought we would float, but we kept sinking
Things were so goodBut you were in love, with some other guy
He looked just like me, but I make you cry,
You know I don’t mean to, noYou know
I don’t mean toI’m just an asshole sometimes

Soul Asylum - Runaway train

Called you up in the middle of the night
like a firefly without a light
you were there like a blowtorch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning
so tired that I couldn't even sleep
so many secrets I couldn't keep
promised myself I wouldn't weep
one more promise I couldn't keep
It seems no one can help me now
I'm in too deep there's no way out this time
I have really led myself astray

Runaway train never going back
wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
somehow I'm neither here nor there

Can you help me remember how to smile
make it somehow all seem worth while
How on earth did I get so jaded
Life's mystery seems so dated

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows here
I am just drowning in the rain
with a ticket for a runaway train
and everything seems cut and dry day and night,
earth and sky somehow I just don't believe it

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
like a madman laughing at the rain a little out of touch,
little insane it's just easier than dealing with the pain

Runaway train never coming back
Runaway train is tearing up the track
Runaway train burning in my veins,
Runaway but it always seems the same

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happy april's fool day. through those laser words.
my delication for you- sorry and thanks.
thanks for everything you've done. plenty.
sorry for times i upset you. many.
i'm really happy. really contented.

my delication.

have you felt it?



wished that you have no dreams
wished you're out of troubles
upon tonight
you're safe and sound.
rest well, my g-a
peace out.