I'll be jus fine.
I'll be jus fine.
yeah school's without fleas and blossphua. hahha and no more beckeh porkeh shouting across the classroom for funkeh monkeh. and no more blossphua cause she's bittersweet. hahha but somehow it make me laugh damn hard when i am reminded of it. and all the people in my class going for ogling. wonder what difference would be left in the class. probably i'll be quiet and real damn quiet. looking forward to school. and not. looking forward to study harder strive harder. to get my batteries. (battery friends would know what it meant) and not because there isnt anymore people that i can talk to. not much. not the usual few. no more green tea partner in the morning. its really rare to find someone who had the same craving for green tea as you do early in the morning. and then no more someone who aye i tell u sth.. aye nth.. i guess i'll miss these days dearly but a big thank you to this few. they left me with memories.
i really wanted to stay aloof but i couldnt do it. i guess its jus not me.
its okay. i would work harder for my goals. i know. i know it will be coming. nothing really left in my mind except to work exceptionally hard. i am motivated and i know its different this time 'round. i know. its coming. i'm working. working real hard as much as i can to get to my goals. to get to where i want. i know there will be this one day. this day its gonna be my best day ever. i am determined so much determined more than anything else more than anytime else. i've learnt. from the day in the hall. i stood aside. eyes fixed on the frantic faces. that couldnt be me. i'll prove myself right. prove everyone else wrong. that i can. i can do it more than anything else. whatever it takes (: though my results aint really showing me the effort i've done these weeks but i know someday it will be. its hard. i know its tough. its tough at the beginning. i'll endure it. the only competitor left in this world would be myself. its saddening to see people doing better than me. but i know im improving. i know what i am doing. believe me once more. believe me one last time. mum and dad, believe me.
i am not like bro who never failed to disappoint you. i need a longer time to get to where i am. but trust me one last time, i'll prove you all wrong. cant you see im already changing. im no longer who i used to be. people said that about me too. its because i realised. i realised the things. the ugly things life left for us to face. i realised that the feeling of really lost. i dont want to feel lost one more time again. i dont care how much i do. i dont care even if i did the ten year series; i'll still not anywhere near the peak. i dont care even if i attended all lectures all tutorials did my homework and i still got a F. because eventually all this will surface. all this will show. all this will show all my effort. remember this. everything will show in the end. so i aint gonna care how much you people can laugh at me. laugh for all everyone want to. because eventually everything will serve as a proof. because i will succeed in the end.
i read the note. read the seriousness of the tone.
pretending i'm not.
yeah school's without fleas and blossphua. hahha and no more beckeh porkeh shouting across the classroom for funkeh monkeh. and no more blossphua cause she's bittersweet. hahha but somehow it make me laugh damn hard when i am reminded of it. and all the people in my class going for ogling. wonder what difference would be left in the class. probably i'll be quiet and real damn quiet. looking forward to school. and not. looking forward to study harder strive harder. to get my batteries. (battery friends would know what it meant) and not because there isnt anymore people that i can talk to. not much. not the usual few. no more green tea partner in the morning. its really rare to find someone who had the same craving for green tea as you do early in the morning. and then no more someone who aye i tell u sth.. aye nth.. i guess i'll miss these days dearly but a big thank you to this few. they left me with memories.
i really wanted to stay aloof but i couldnt do it. i guess its jus not me.
its okay. i would work harder for my goals. i know. i know it will be coming. nothing really left in my mind except to work exceptionally hard. i am motivated and i know its different this time 'round. i know. its coming. i'm working. working real hard as much as i can to get to my goals. to get to where i want. i know there will be this one day. this day its gonna be my best day ever. i am determined so much determined more than anything else more than anytime else. i've learnt. from the day in the hall. i stood aside. eyes fixed on the frantic faces. that couldnt be me. i'll prove myself right. prove everyone else wrong. that i can. i can do it more than anything else. whatever it takes (: though my results aint really showing me the effort i've done these weeks but i know someday it will be. its hard. i know its tough. its tough at the beginning. i'll endure it. the only competitor left in this world would be myself. its saddening to see people doing better than me. but i know im improving. i know what i am doing. believe me once more. believe me one last time. mum and dad, believe me.
i am not like bro who never failed to disappoint you. i need a longer time to get to where i am. but trust me one last time, i'll prove you all wrong. cant you see im already changing. im no longer who i used to be. people said that about me too. its because i realised. i realised the things. the ugly things life left for us to face. i realised that the feeling of really lost. i dont want to feel lost one more time again. i dont care how much i do. i dont care even if i did the ten year series; i'll still not anywhere near the peak. i dont care even if i attended all lectures all tutorials did my homework and i still got a F. because eventually all this will surface. all this will show. all this will show all my effort. remember this. everything will show in the end. so i aint gonna care how much you people can laugh at me. laugh for all everyone want to. because eventually everything will serve as a proof. because i will succeed in the end.
i read the note. read the seriousness of the tone.
pretending i'm not.
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