the world's mine.
wonder what am i feeling right now. quite lethargic. maybe i should have tried not to be so bonded with people. thats why maybe i would feel so sad that some people are leaving. but i never regretted knowing them. they probably add a lot of fun to my life in the first three months. i'll remember this few people for life!
its okay. i know its gonna be okay. bcos thats life. people come and go. already i am. knowing what life would bring us to. all the reality that people would never want to face. i know. i got myself very acquainted with life already. sometimes its saddening but at least i know whats life. though i very much dislike the kind of feeling. but i am used to it.
im stuck in my corners. those little corners im confined to. but im glad. i have somewhere to retreat to. im feeling sick. these few days. sick but not so much with im sick. im jus feeling sick somehow. maybe it would be good if i can disappear. run away. how much i want to run away from everything.
i'll tell you whats happening last week.
1) A's results out. bro did it again.
2) disappointed with my chinese. got a 3.
3) only As are important.
4) the feeling of going up the stage to recieve your triple As.
5) no more aiming EEO for promos.
6) AAA.
7) understand what life force people to do.
got back from hedi's house. pretty comfortable slacking around her room at nights. didnt study jus pure slacking around. wished this never ends. felt so good. felt so comfortable. back to the young days.
I wanna scream. badly.
and the dream that is perfect. i wan it. badly. perfect never exists. im comfortable here; right here the world's mine.
on the way to hedi's house. was at the void deck waiting for the lift. i saw a young couple carry luggages and hailing a cab. i cant help but stare. and the few thought i was mad. damn. i wanna go overseas. the feeling was damn good lah. and most of the times when u go overseas, you wake up in the wee hours of the morning or in the middle of late nights. the feeling was quite fresh. you feel so refreshed right. something different from the normal timings when u wake up for school for work. i looked at them in envy. and when you reach the airport. quiet except for the announcments and the pulling of luggages and people whispering and tapping of the shoes. arghh i cant help it. im going nuts. i want to go badly. out of this place. to a place of strangers. i rather be free from everything. i wanna go now. this minute. right now.
right here the world's mine.
its okay. i know its gonna be okay. bcos thats life. people come and go. already i am. knowing what life would bring us to. all the reality that people would never want to face. i know. i got myself very acquainted with life already. sometimes its saddening but at least i know whats life. though i very much dislike the kind of feeling. but i am used to it.
im stuck in my corners. those little corners im confined to. but im glad. i have somewhere to retreat to. im feeling sick. these few days. sick but not so much with im sick. im jus feeling sick somehow. maybe it would be good if i can disappear. run away. how much i want to run away from everything.
i'll tell you whats happening last week.
1) A's results out. bro did it again.
2) disappointed with my chinese. got a 3.
3) only As are important.
4) the feeling of going up the stage to recieve your triple As.
5) no more aiming EEO for promos.
6) AAA.
7) understand what life force people to do.
got back from hedi's house. pretty comfortable slacking around her room at nights. didnt study jus pure slacking around. wished this never ends. felt so good. felt so comfortable. back to the young days.
I wanna scream. badly.
and the dream that is perfect. i wan it. badly. perfect never exists. im comfortable here; right here the world's mine.
on the way to hedi's house. was at the void deck waiting for the lift. i saw a young couple carry luggages and hailing a cab. i cant help but stare. and the few thought i was mad. damn. i wanna go overseas. the feeling was damn good lah. and most of the times when u go overseas, you wake up in the wee hours of the morning or in the middle of late nights. the feeling was quite fresh. you feel so refreshed right. something different from the normal timings when u wake up for school for work. i looked at them in envy. and when you reach the airport. quiet except for the announcments and the pulling of luggages and people whispering and tapping of the shoes. arghh i cant help it. im going nuts. i want to go badly. out of this place. to a place of strangers. i rather be free from everything. i wanna go now. this minute. right now.
right here the world's mine.
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