strange =|

staring at nothing. slept too long.

hadnt been here quite somewhile alr. was busy watching shows and sleeping late and getting sick. am afraid of being sick. it makes me feel im damn weak. i hate it man. i dont like to be weak. everything jus comes in your way.

for the first time i very much wanted to rest. lying on the bed staring at nothing didnt feel that bad when i all along thought it was since young. i hate being sick when i was young because of being sick, i'm dead. killed by boredom. somehow lying there aimlessly feels quite right. realise so many people around me care for me so much. so many important people i knew care for me. i felt loved. for this time.

the world's turning. my vision's blurred. i cant hear.