if i walk away, will you be able to catch up with me. will you recover the distance i walk away from you.

last night while you're sleeping, i sneak out silently and slip away from you. i went around. i went to the coast and i sat there on my own. sat there for hours watching the ships passed by. watched the grey sea sky float. heard the beating of waves and my own heart beat. true. the purest. and then the hungry waves turn and swept me off the shore. the waves didnt leave any clues behind and i was gone. gone away from you. they cleared my footprints from the shore. and i vanished from earth. the next morning when the sea was calm and soft. you never realised my presence.

if i continue walking and you continue walking in the same direction. you can never catch up with me.

it came to me like an enlightment. like forcing my mind open. like unable to control the thoughts that float by. like piano music that disrupted the usual peace. the same old feeling feels familiar. the same old place but with strangers. like nothing but the truth. nothing but the purest mind thoughts and feelings.

like how i struggle with the strong waves in my mind. like how the music rings in my mind. like how pictures came across. like how we're back in the streets. those old streets. like how you didnt realised. like how i vanished beyond. like how every memory is washed away on the surface. like all the memories being washed and sank into the bottom of a bottomless pit. like how you tried to pick up the pieces. like how i struggled. like life. like life now. like a paradise where i found solutions. like maybe there is a little faith left. not entirely bottomless.

like a piano covered with memories and dust.

little dreams and trips (:
its time to try anything

so take me there now.

i am still enjoying my fishing with eskimos in faraway north. where time freezes there and avoiding pain for anyone. so everyone would be spared from the misery. our minds will be free. so do our souls.