come back down

weird feelings. i dont know how to describe it but it is coming over me. i'm tired. every second makes me feel more tired now. feeling heavy. like im sinking. sinking in the dead sea. life really drains me. i dont know to arrange my time. i love hanging out with the boys. as much as i told myself to control, the more i could not do so. maybe that moments with them will drive all the unhappiness away. but whenever i reach home i still sigh cos its almost ten plus when im done with bathing and etc. cant seem to find myself to do work right now. so i came for songs. came to rant out all the feelings. i know i shouldnt get affected easilly. or influenced. but at that moment, nothing seems to be wrong. and i hate taking bus rides now other than it allows me to sleep. i kept taking buses 854 and 853 so at least i can talk to meh or the boys for a while. maybe thats why 857 waiting time and journey seems long nowadays. maybe lifes like that now.

there was moments when thoughts intersect and i couldnt shake off the thought. all i know is that-

i couldnt co-exist