bitterbitterbittersweet

i lost faith already. i lost all hopes of believing. no matter how many motivating courses i go, its hard to make me feel like before. the strong me that i believe in myself and many other things. I thought i was so strong that no negative comments can deter me because i wont bother about it. but right now, i was almost weak that negative comments make me weak. how can anyone help me to change this mindset right now. i know i am flawed. i have plenty of weakness with nothing good to comment about. i acknowledge them but i dont believe these weakness would stop me from getting to where i want. but i couldnt move on for a very long time. sometimes people say things that they wouldnt notice it would hurt me, but it does in fact. i thought just let them be. but now, i just couldnt.



i realised how much i've changed after sitting down there 11+ tonight eating satays and chicken wings.



things always get so bitterbitterbittersweet. for some kind of dumb reasons.