Sha la la.

Sha la la.

I'm happy. I got whatever i wanted. I should be contented but life isnt that smooth. Sometimes I do have the fall periods. Actually before today is one. But Im kinda surprised that I feels indifferent nowadays.

I wont get so pissed and angry recently. Even though upsets me but I didnt know why I'm not really that upset actually. I forget it easilly. Its good actually. I think my life now is quite happy.

[[ Thursday ]]

My mother gave me the money and I'm in amore fitness now. going to work out!..

Something cropped up. The list of the permanent class was out and congratuations. No one is in the same class as me. =) And the worst thing. I was posted Econs, maths c and geography. Why geog again? I was running away desperately from geog.. P28 my permanent class.

I leave a note for Hod of physics and he asked me to see Hod of maths the next day first thing in the morning.

I was thinking everything over and over again. Do god want to tell me something? Not to take physics? I didnt know. I didnt want fate to control me but to control my fate. So should I try to take physics or geog? I have no idea. And I head down to Bugis..... Sigh and sign up for the amore fitness..

Head to town with casse and gera.. Kill time at TCC.. laughter time.. and we turn mad in dere.. but it was really funny..

It was questions and questions all over my head..

What should i do?

.. troubled ..

I skipped lessons and lessons. No physics. No economics. No maths. The last lesson i went for physics. I didnt know what he was teaching. I am lagging. Lagging too far behind. I still skipped lessons. It was really peer influence. I am letting every minute. every second. every hour pass.

Everyone is telling me NO. Even i am telling myself NO. but what has gone into me? I feel so upset so angry with myself. but i dont feel like going. And physics. Was god trying to tell me sth? I tried so hard. going thru so many things to get my physics and now i feel as if im throwing physics away.. I told myself.. To study hard for it.. But why? I am a slacker. And i dreamt of great things but those great dreams were never mine.

[[Friday]]

Late for the third time. Mr ganesh was at the gate.. ushering ppl that they were late.. and i didnt care.. slowly i strolled him and i told him I stomache and he told me to take my time.. And everyone hurrying.. running away.. gees~ ppl start to call my hp.. bombarding me with calls.. its urgent.. as if whole world finding me and dere Im trying to conceal myself.. not exactly.. I went to the general office find hod of maths.. she isnt dere so i wanna came back later.. went class.. whole world finding me.. miss aisha wanna talk to me.. and i was called to the general office. was scolded like hell by her. And it makes me having that thought never to stay in YJ. I was terrified. really. and speechless. I went back to class petrified. tears almost dropped but luckilly no. I was changed to P17. and same. no one is with me. physically and as well as mentally.. but its alrite.. its okae..

Alone.. battling these.. I did controlled and my mood was changed.. like wad i say.. no anger..

And i ran out of school at 10+ thru the school's gate.. climbing thru an undergrd drain.. I carnt believe what i did too. I got myself hurt and dirty.. It was fun but i would never do it again.. We went out... and around 4+ i meet with them gera , casse and amy to go for lessons and the lessons so fast.. I carnt catch up.. Hip-Hop.. ya rite.. After tt i bathe and went to meet dem again.. Melissa,Sylvester, khing loon, weijie and weijun.. took loads of neos.. and announce broke..

[[ Saturday which is today ]]

Mum woke me up in the morning. gave me money and ask me to see a doc later on. I realise she did care about me. I only had a sore eye but why is the whole world so concerned.. Im really glad.. comforted that I had friends that care ard me..

I head down to K with gera.. She is finally smiling carnt stop.. Fulfilled her dreams but she is one greedy woman.. sure ask for more.. u give me money.. i go with u.. ;) gees~

And we went to Outram poly clinic but its closed. todays a sat.. anione forgot? And then we went to the OP warehouse sale. got a small bag for myself. Its cheap. I saw a shirt wanted to get for my bro but the queue damn long. In the end I put the shirt back and after the queue isnt that long.. I searched back.. Its gone.. haah.. might as well..

Went to Cityhall.. And espirit to get shirts gera want.. and amy got staff discount so after gera met up with her mum.. she bought tons of things.. I bought a shirt for my mum.. and guess she is happy with it.. gees.. I feel happy too.. My mum is happy. So i am happy too. Thanks amy for ur effort.. I wanna get somemore for my mum but not at espirit lars.. I understand.. She didnt want get any new yr clothes.. and wearing back the old one.. so i am going to buy.. I saw some that would look good on my brother.. and my dad too..

I'm not working and the things i get for dem is always discounted price.. And my mum gave me the doc money. And I thinks i rather buy clothes for dem rather to see a doc for a sore eye.. I don like giving money to doc aniwae.. Okies.. outta here.. Its 3am..

My small episodes of life ends here.