[[ I wonder, I wonder ]]

[[ I wonder, I wonder ]]
wonder what?

Lots of things.Lots, lots and lots.

[[ The day ]]

Tomorrow. It seems so super duper fast.. How am i gonna survive thru the night? I already having nightmares for the past three days.. I carnt even sleep in peace.. What shall i do..? I sure couldnt get less than 20 for L1R5.. how am i going to face my parents? sighs..

and think i really wanna stay in YJ.. the friends i made.. the people i interacted.. the environment i used to.. the teachers i know of..

I really hate to change to a new environment.. I wanna stay.. Though the people arent that true.. but it happens everywhere i guess... I dont understand why but the people are really not true.. I dont know how to describe..

People walk past and past.. No one bother to look.. Everything here its about your outer most look.. ur appearance.. and which is why no one is true.. no one bothers to be..

I prefer to be a college where my mentality is still havin fun.. I need tchers to push me.. I am a born slacker.. Have to admit that..

Rite now i carnt ever find friends to work hard with.. everyone is all about having fun.. If i really need to work hard.. I need some motivation.. some friends to go about with me.. that would be really hard..

[[ The nightmares ]]

I dreamt again today. Its been the third day.. Is it that scary to get ur results?

[[ Her dreams ]]

Who can ever pull me out of the mess? I can already predict.. The PSLE. Its like the same. getting results that my parents din approve. I am not smart and hardworking. Yet my parents have high expectations of me. I rather they have low expectations and be surprised. rather than getting dissappointed..

Its like tomorrow would be the day. Its gonna prove everything. Determine where you go. And your future road is laid from tomorrow.. No one likes to repeat anything..

Where am i gonna to be? Its like everyone is so certain i would do not bad.. but how could they ever understand my feelings.. They told me shiping u sure do very well.. but are they the ones doing the paper? doing my paper? How could they understand..

Its so uncertain. I got a feeling its bad. And i really want to get into college. Thats since young.. something i dreamt of.. Its been my secondary school dreaming of getting into one.. Without really hard work.. do you think i can make it?

I wanted to go university.. Its been my childhood dream..

And everyone would tell me I can do it. Are they cambridge or whatever? and if tmr i didnt do well.. I am gonna be very very dissapointed.. Everyone had high hopes.. giving me high hopes.. and and and what do you think?

I really have no idea but i am very scared.

My results will be out. My results already been known to all teachers before i even stepped into the school tmr. What will their face show? Is it really dissapointment? What is that? I have no face.. nowhere to hide for tmr then..

How much i wished i could do well. I wanna believe in myself so much. I am thinking positively but i had to consider the bad side at the same time..

And dont console me that much.. I am already thinking positively and believing in myself..

I wanna believe. Believe is a strong word.