[[ Valentine's day ]]

And my valentine's day wasnt quite smooth..

In fact i thought it is the worst valentine's day..

In the past.. I didnt gave much thought bout it.. Because still innocent.. But i saw couples and couples.. That feeling wasnt that good.. It was awkward walking in the whole streets swarming with couples..

And the worst thing was in school.. I felt so bad.. I am invisible.. transparent.. and and and so much worst.. I wanted to hide myself..

I walked away.. I skipped lectures.. I didnt join them.. I was wandering in school finding a place to conceal myself.. hide myself away.. so that no one can see me.. and i almost broke down..

I didnt know why.. I really didnt know why i ended up like that..

I wanted to get away badly.. get out of sight and to a place where no one can find me or see me.. When i was walking around the school.. I see people.. That feeling wasnt good.. And all i wanted is to find a place to hide.. a place where i can declare my own.. a place where my world is out..

I am really tired.. really sick of this life.. What should i do?

My temp class people were mixing well.. They had their own friends.. and me?

feeling so out of place..I am desperate.. really desperate to run away..

No one can understands why. They dont know and they pretend to know. Can you free me with burdens..

I have so much work to do.. so much things to catch up..I have no one to blame.. Its my own doings..

What a valentine.

I am stressed and i wanna break down..

I can mix with no one here. I am alone.

Breaking down rite now..

Please..

Leave me alone..