[[ second day ]]

[[ second day ]]

What to say. I really didnt know what to say.

Today it is supposed to be our second day of "gel" together.

And I feel blank. Empty. I felt distant and once again totally out of place. perhaps today wasnt a that bad day after all.

I was trying so hard. trying so hard to fit in but to no avail. They isnt like my kind. They were serious. Its hard to even crap. And would you want to know how hard i tried to?

It was hopeless.

I knew them but at least they knew my existence but to me my class was all strange people..

In the morning I was complaining to zheng long how my class peeps and me were. And i really don wanna join them anymore but he ask me to join in and i gave another attempt..

It was alright. We can talk. but still there is imaginery invisible borders between all of us..

when would this borders disappear..

Perhaps i haven see their crappy side..

Who knows what might befall in future?