[[ Days of our lives ]]

[[ Days of our lives ]]

Today is our permanent class outing. And P17 has decided to go to the sunny beachy island named sentosa. It turned out that those who never skipped lectures skipped our outing and those who skipped lectures actually went. And our class was left with not much people.. so off we go..

And if you wanna ask me how is P17 like..

I can tell you. Its separated. Divided. There is many different groups in dere. yeaps divided.

I was planning to meet our T27 for dinner.. and talked to melissa on phone this morning.. I woke up late already and Im on the phone happilly chatting away.. without realising the time.. And i was late. terribly late. I came out of home and its 8. and they said they assemble in school at 8.15. I reached the bus stop and the bus has already passed the stop and is stopping at the traffic light. I asked the uncle if i can board and he shook his head. so without any choice.. I went to take the mrt.. Luckilly till they dragged on till 8.40 before assembling. And i was on my way dere.. Everyone on the bus was waiting for me..

Perhaps some time they will labelled me as the draggy or the late queen..

I lost my punctuality these days. Even meeting friends.. yesh and I'm draggy..

When walking to take mrt.. I was changing from NEL to the red line.. I thought it will be quite empty at this hour so I could hav a seat..guess I forgot bout the working people.. Normally it would be rather noisy at dhoby ghaut.. It was crowded at the station.. but there was only silence except the tapping of shoes.. I look around.. I didnt spot any student.. dere was only peoples dress maturely and carrying suitcases going to work.. The tapping of shoes was continuous.. however it seems rather peaceful.. I wonder when would i have this life.. and i think im going to dread it..

Soon. Soon, It will be time..

We will have to progress from one stage to another. Processes of life i guess... I didnt know why the tapping of shoes evolves me to think further.. And can anyone believe it? Im going to be 17 this year.. 17. Its like a very mature age.. and us? the forever carnt seem to be mature is going to be 17. It was scary. Life ahead indeed is..

I had the fear. And actually people around me felt the fear too. We are growing up way too fast.. and we will change sooner or later..

When jumping from primary 6 to secondary 1.. I didnt felt so much fear.. I didnt miss primary school that much though its fun.. It was that innocent thought that we are progressing from one stage to the another and I didnt give it much thought.. Right now.. why am i thinking too much..? and even to the extent thinking whats life.. and everything else..

And that is thursday's blog and my com crashed on thur so I shall post it now..

and friday i was a bad girl.. skipped almost all lectures.. went for GP, phyics only.. and Gp tcher was even madder.. she was one crazy woman.. And damn lame lor.. and and and.. i feel as though Im attending an hour of madness tutorial..

After that went to meet gera and amy.. and went walk at bugis before going to gym and we worked out.. and was tired.. I am broke too.. sighs..

Today woke up at so late.. I should go and change the panasonic wire but it is damn far.. and i couldnt wake up.. might as well.. Late for floor hockey too.. Oh floor hockey..

I shall blog bout the topic floor hockey.. It was last few years i think.. bcos we were part of the floorball.. Some tcher came to us to call us to attend a talk bout it by singapore special olympics.. And we joined in.. Floor hockey is played by the mentally disabled people or rather IQ low people.. And a year ago... when i joined in.. the game was rather fun actually.. It was rather a slow pace game.. and the people was like us.. they have nothing different with the normal people.. and they were portrayed as innocent people rather..

Few years ago.. We were teaming with them to make a floor hockey carnival to show that they are like us.. and unfortunately bcos of the big rain.. It was cancelled.. when training with them.. We were still able to cope and today.. we were like horrible.. It was countless of goals for them and no one remember the score.. for that like 2 hours.. It was uncountable to a mere goals of 4..

And I saw something.. It was their determination and i had much confidence that they can win the competition held in japan.. They were serious and committed to the game.. and yet i was like unfocused.. At least for that year.. i can see they trained very hard and we being normal people can actually lose to them.. And we shouldnt even discriminate people like them.. In fact.. I was impressed by how fast they can be.. Their abilities are far much more better than normal people..

The like one year without practising floor hockey while they were practising.. And i realise something.. They were doing something useful and I am slacking for that year.. They have stronger determination and commitment compared to me.. I should feel ashamed.. At least they practised to get to where they stand today and look from that point we all started out.. I have been slacking.. It wasnt about the winnings today or the embarrassment.. It was about how hard they tried..

They believed in themselves and after so much of my ashamed.. I still hadnt been doing anything..Why couldnt i get myself up.. where could i find those strength to move on and where do i get those kind of eyes like them..

It was so much and so much....And me..?

I should think about it over..