[[ The fear factors ]]

[[ The fear factors ]]

Oh yes.. My brother got my da sao roses.. guess she must be shell shocked.. Update someday on how he does it? okies? hahahas.. YES.. my whole family waited for that 5 roses for like half an hour? And den and den my mother says my father damn niao.. on their enagement.. he only bought her one pathetic red rose.. AHAHAHAh.. and we were laughing all the way.. even my dad.. and she says that even his son more "guo qi".. lols..

Enjoyable? Yes.. It does..

Badminton? Floorball? COUNCIL?

I realise my badminton really sucks.. not that i have little confidence in myself.. but people tells me that.. =)

and should i ever continue on with floorball?

and actually i am really interested in council but just tt no one mentions it before so i better shuddup.. I actually like to something sports kind.. but council seems pretty interesting.. somehow got affected by my brother..

If i want something.. I dont want it small.. I want it big.. I know i dont have a big head so dont wear a big hat.. but I want to be the president of council.. and this is gonna be really tough.. I cannot speak in front of so many people.. I have stage fright..

I dont want to be tt kind of councillor that has not much power.. I just want to be outstanding.. to be involved.. to be a leader.. yes a leader..

When you think and write is different.. And my blog is always quite pleasant.. emotional.. but imagine i have to get myself up on the stage.. how tough would it be?

I carnt speak well. I carnt display myself well. so what the hell am i gonna do? How on the earth can i try to pull votes? Its so hard.. no one would vote for a nobody anyway..

So how? I really like to give a try.. like hedi who keeps cleaning my mind.. filtering those unhygenic thoughts.. she told me if you nvr try how would you know ppl dont vote for you?

I like to but you have to know how much courage does it takes from me? besides i am not popular in school.. neither do I have the looks to make ppl vote for me.. Neither do I have the fluent language..

Yet I want to. I really have to reconsider many factors too. I will be really busy and to return home late.

But I want to be responsible. to be a leader. to be different. really different.

[[ My new class - 0127 ]]

Wonderful. Why the hell do we keep changing class? changing environment.. I just hate to enter a class full of strangers.. new friends.. and your old friends perhaps forgotten all bout you..

I wanted to restart. I wanted to start over again. but i realise i still cannot adapt.. I still skip most of the stuff to be with my old class..

Its alrite today actually. Its all talks and talks. And I dont find a need to go for it since i have no interest in their CCAs listed dere.. And why the hell they forced us to go for it? Its damn dumb.

I was slacking with P17 in da canteen.. Just plain slacking.. and Mdm shelia somehow caught us 3 times in the canteen.. so she "escorted" us dere.. Since we were all different class.. I am the last and she was walking with me thruout the school lookin for my class =).. Just dont find my class.. I dont wanna join dem anyway.. I rather walk with her thru the school..

And she was rather fierce.. asking why am i not with my class going for the talks.. and i am in the first 3 months and further more i should be dere.. and in the end i asked her why do we have to be dere since we have no single interest in the CCAs dere.. and she somehow agreed..phew~ and i told her i rather sit inside lectures instead of doing meaningless stuff.. and she told me maybe its a time to interact with my class.. craps.. thou its true but i dont wanna..

I just feel uncomfortable dere..

And I walked with her thru the school and i said i rather walk with you in the school.. so she asked me what cca i wanted to join.. and i told her floorball =) she is the floorball teacher =) =) =) lucky she didnt say much~

And we were in the AVA "blow aircon".. two of us in dere other than the band members.. -,-"

And so I happilly sit dere.. quietly..

And until one guy from my class came up to me and told me.. " Are you from my class?" I immediately SWEAT -.-" That guy was Zisheng.. a quite interesting guy.. He is quite friendly and den somehow my class began to join in.. small parts.. I asked for their phone numbers and so on..

Aniwae we're gonnna be 2 yrs classmates..

And my class has 27 people with only 7 guys.. -.-" and I am a stranger with the 26 of dem..

How would i say.. Friendly people? Speechless when with dem..

Yeah just like that..

Actually i was very much hoping to stay in P17.. but guess the other place do me more better?

I had to start all over again.. I really hate it..

Luckilly.. My class jus knew each other so the bond wasnt that strong like in P17.. had to make external friends.. But they were already mixing quite well.. speaking in english which really like made me feeling awkward.. why on earth did i chose literature too? But i know i do better in literature than physics..

I really hate changing environment.. It sucks..

T27 - P17 - 0127

3 times!! and between the T27 to P17.. something happen.. so could say i changed 4 times..

Today was basically useless. school is nothing.

Now i really hate interacting. I hate being speechless.