[[ feel so different now ]]

[[ feel so different now ]]

Its been a really long time. long time to wad? I dont know but i think its a good starting. ha what the hell.

Suddenly i recalled this phrase

等待你是我持续心跳的唯一理由

It sounds familiar. Its the phrase in waiting for you MTV.. Its like been ages since i hear the song.. yeps.. hopefully i reminded gera about Kbox bahs..

Basically its still empty within the soul.. I dont know why but i just felt plain empty.. No purpose in life..

I was wondering how many people actually read my blog.. What was their impression of me.. I really wonder..

I am getting really really out of touch with people.. Good friends, friends, classmates, family and everything.. Family not so much. I just gave my mum a big hug yesterday.. hahaha.. and it feels so great..

I was at home. doing wad? Looking after my maid cos she seems to be doing funny things.. And my brother is also at home.. but the main problem is.. that my mum asks us to be looking at her.. but we were looking at the computer.. so engrossed in looking at the computer that we forgotten bout our mission..

I think I just leave later on to go down to the library.. I really miss that old old national library so much.. My o's days.. and toa payoh one too.. I jus pop by at toa payoh one later on.. I have to help hedi to return her books as well..

Yes yesterday.. I went with paulin shiqi and kenneth to watch the eye 10.. Its like damn dumb.. They werent at least a little bit afraid.. they say the show was lame and funny.. Yet I felt so dumb.. hidding behind my file till paulin took away my file.. In the end i use my hands cover my eyes and listening to my mp3..

I dont know why but i really dont like watchin horror movies but I dont wanna go home.. Its like only 3pm.. And I was wanna hanged out.. and hopefully gera u understand.. Besides i couldnt be out today.. but since my brother is at home..

And den changed plans already.. going to Ecp with carmen, siying, qi wei and shiao loong.. goin to rollerbalde? still scared of those slopes.. alemak.. Where did my study plan gone to.. alemak..

I didnt went school today cos i thought i might be going out but gera arent u working as well.. And my class the girls went.. I really am getting out of touch with dem..

I dont know but i just dont want to know dem very well.. ha what could happen to me? I used to love making friends.. but now i guess i really detest it..

I dont know why but i feel so empty this while.. Its like i have no aim no goals.. I am so empty. yes.

I miss everyone. Bendemeer days. 2e2 days. 4e3 days. chinese class days. badminton days. kajiao-ing teachers days. asking for help days. basketball days. studyin days. going out days. macdonald days. outing days. laughing days. teacher day. chinese new year days. rainy days. sunny days. night study days. school days. mdm kaur days. mrs lo days. miss lim days. miss ngoh days. mr leong days. mr ng days. mr kwok days. mr netti days. mrs tan days. mrs leong days. miss ang days. BJJ days. be yourself days. floorball days. floor hockey days. camp days. childish days. Pe days. 2.4km days. happy days. sad days.

It all starts and concludes in bendemeer. I really like it so much until i dont know why. I feel so used to dere. We know each other in school. No strangers. Same bunch of friends to hang out. I guess bendemeer taught us well. I used to think tell people i am from bendemeer. throw face only but now i think proudly of being a bendemeerian.

I felt so different now.