Confessions part IV.

For the unspoken "best friend",

i understand what ya goin thru, and im really want to stand with you and go thru all these shit together. and all those unwanted thoughts, we'll make it go away, alright? really wanna destress you. and make you happier. though i dont know what to do, how to react. i'm sorry for being so stupid today and for telling you all that kind of shit. but jus don care all these for this moment, we will find a way to solve it, wont we? hahha i bet it would be stupid if others happened to look at my blog. probably looked so stupid. but i really wanna tell ya that you means a lot to me. i really dont know why i got that kind of feeling. i really never met someone like you too. i really dont know how to explain but im really sorry for telling you all those unwanted thoughts today. and making you so unhappy. but i aint gonna care anymore already. and i dont know how to make you smile again. i want you to be happy every moment. i can tell you're so stressed up and so tired. i feel so helpless. i really dont know what to do but hopefully you see this post, it can make you smile. I really wanna take away all the stress in you. just dont go and bother with all other not worth mentioning stuff, and just have that bu guan bu zai hu attitude. we'll settle it when we're stress free alright. it seems kinda weird to express what am i thinking all down here. and dont feel sorry for not being able to make me happy. actually somehow it saddens me when you're so upset down there. but try to stay positive, so you can be happy and i will too! jus want you to understand, you still have me around. and even the world collapse, you wont collapse. i wont let you collapse. be strong. just be strong a bit this period. we'll overcome it together okay! really hope i can do something about it but i dont know what. jus hope this lil encouragment from me would makes you feel better. hang on.. no matter what, i really will be there. really seems weird to say something like that. like confessions. yeah and i know you can do it! i might seems so foolish jus now but i gave a thought, i realised it doesnt really matter. i know you're true, thats enough. and really dont take all my words seriously, jus forget about it okay? and im sorry for the 10% today. i dont know what can i do to make up for it. though i understand your situation. you dont want me to apologize because you think im not in the wrong but i can only apologize to make cos i wanna make you feel better. i really dont know what to say about that. i know you got the same feeling as me. you dont want to be bothered by such small incident, like only 10% but in fact you're a bit affected. you didnt make me promise you not to think over these incidents but i really didnt give much thought about it. thanks. maybe not telling you sorry already but thanks. really thanks. thanks for being so understanding and knowing what to do what am i thinking about. thanks for understand what i wanna say even if i cant find a way to say what i want. i knew it from your eyes. you really understand so thank you! i believe. future. present. everything about you. i dont know why but you're really special. i really can see forever. i have faith in you! sometimes, i really can feel that you felt my unspoken language. my unspoken thoughts. and you understood me. i dont need to say much or even anything and you understood perfectly. thanks for the simplicity you gave me. it seems really different. the kind of bond we shared. a different kind of intuition we shared. maybe thats why the feeling is different. maybe thats why you're so different from other people as well. you always made my day. and never failed to make me smile for nuts. you really touched me for what you had done. i really dont care what the rest thinks and i really want to tell you- i love you.

yours faithfully,
shiping.


For a brave soul- friend,

yeah today another damn day. had been talking to my friend for quite some time and i realised many things of her. i really felt so hurt for her deep down. i began to know more of this good friend. i understand why. i really dont know what to say to her but jus lend a listening ear. for all along she didnt tell us much and her refusal in being so bonded with us. i finally know why. and all these people who said all that to her, i really dont know what more to say. but if im there, i would definitely stand up for her cos shes my friend. really i felt so different. when she told me all that. i really felt so hurting. might even teared bcos i really understand. she almost had no one to depend on and i really admire her courage and understand the pain shes going thru. just be strong, friend. everything would be fine alright. i know you can do it, cos you're brave. much more stronger than me. i really understand why. you dont need to say much. i understand perfectly. and really felt the pain. try to stay happy and dont get affected. sometimes in life, we meet different people and different people made us stronger or weaker. and maybe thats life. damn. and mean people often made us stronger so thank them. they strengthen our determination. and you would meet true people who come in time for support to hold you to prevent you from falling to prevent you from collapsing. her matured thinking really won me respect at times. and dearest friend, i know you can do it. and no matter what, we would be there. i would.

yours sincerely,
shiping.