[[ Overworked.. Too stressed.. ]]

[[ Life's different. ]]

My blog for today is gonna be fierce. I am too stressed. I am simply exploding..

My maid went back yesterday. I was doin that stupid bloody chinese compre until 2am and before that was re writing the list and arrangin the class posts..

I reached home around evening time yesterday. The only thing i heard in the whole house was silence. Guess everything changes.

My parents were rushed off to pack my maid stuff and shoved us off to dere as well. Nobody touched the dinner. And we settled everything and settle in a hawker centre for our dinner at 930.

I scanned ard at the maid agency. somehow this time I didnt cry bcos I didnt even see her. I never thought in the noon when she opened the house door.. that will be last time I ever see her..

There wasnt silence like the other time sending my previous maid off. we were still singing songs and laughing in the car. I just love the times in the car. I feel so comfortable. So happy. so simple.

And today. everything was different. Indeed, we never had been left alone without maids in our lives. Everything was still fine. We were really the precious ones of my parents. me and my brother. My dad woke us up instead of my maid. My mum prepare the breakfast instead of my maid. My mum doublechecked if we were up so she called home. we were the last ones leaving the house into silence.

We packed our stuff the night before by the usherings of my mum. My dad didnt even allow me to sleep another more second. He use a wet towel and splash it on my face =). My brother was like one pig. He doesnt even recall our papa doing that. I woke my brother up. I sandwiched the ham and cheese into his bread and mine. I poured the tea. I took out my own medicine and eat. My brother locked the door.

We used like 4 alarm clocks in the house but I didnt heard any single alarm other than that wet towel. clever dad. And my mum filled our waterbottles. everything was done.

We were really like princess and prince to our dearest parents.

And everything seems different now. I have to take charge of my own things. I have to be responsible.

I was changing the sheets for my rabbits jus now. It really stinks omg. How did my maid do that? In the end I still conquer the smell. I console myself that the cigarette smell is worst than that. In fact It is.

Our house is really in a totally bad condition. It is so messy.

No matter how life is different. We are still the same.

[[ Overworked.. Too stressed.. ]]

Today didnt really turn out well for me but luckilly i am not a really pessimist. If not I would have straight away commit suicide.

I bonded with this class so much today. I am always with them. And really one thing our girls are so united that only a few didnt join us.. but we were a group.. It is one lucky and worth being happy thing..

We were supposed to hand in the econs file so I went to find miss chew.. but i couldnt find her for the whole day.. I have lessons from 1-5pm and 5pm-7pm I've got floorball so in the end.. I took different breaktime to went to find her. I have to hand in the attendance list as well. so from 1-7pm.. I simply couldnt find her..so after floorball I went to her staffroom and put it on the desk with the presence of one teacher.

And I called her tell her.. got scolded.. I shouldnt have placed the files in the staff room.. I should give her personally..

It really got me MAD MAD MAd because I went to do all these stuff and was not appreciated at all.. It was like the feeling of being accused.. All i ever wanted is to pass up the things and I never knew this kinda of stuff would happen.. And I forgot to bring my phone so I couldnt even contact her..

Miss chew, KILL ME!!

And she told me about some stuff and I have to hand in like proposal to her? and tmr? oh goodness gracious.. KIll me better.

I am like damn stressed. I have tons of things to do. Tmr have chinese spelling.. what the hell and might as well kill me now..

Its damn hard to accomodate to everyone's wishes. They can simply tell me they dont like who with who or they want who to be with.. and I have to remake everything over again..

And I dont understand why I have to do other stuff as well.. might as well dont appoint other reps or wad..

She is nice but she is driving me nuts honestly.

GOD! KILL ME.

I was on the bus wondering if I went to commit suicide right now. and peeps readin my blog. dont worry. will it be better? I dont care bout others but now I found that my life is empty.

so empty that I feel like dying.

I am tired. really tired. breaking down soon. stressed out totally.

And everyone is coming to me asking for directions in school, stuff and so on. My bill is really gonna explode.

KILL ME (=

Yes I am overworked.