[[ Shut up ]]

[[ Shut up ]]

Well the words repeating in my head now is "Fuck fuck fuck"..what the hell..

go away people..

I know people might think whats wrong with this girl again.. why is she so violent.. what the hell..

emotionally down these days.. I always try to look happier but people around me dont give me chance..

I am a class rep. what is a class rep? A class rep is someone who take down your orders and do everything for ya and without being paid. thats a class rep. people can call me and ask heys where is our class now? where are we supposed to hand in the work? and i have to go around asking ehs.. this this this you coming to school today? How come you not coming? I have to know every person's trace. I cannot look away from my class. if one missing and i dont know why. thats it. i get scoldings. I tried to hand in the work as soon as possible. And I did it to like 2am and when i got it done. something always happen.. And the class list i do until i want to die.. only my family hears my moaning bout the thing.. yet when it was photocopied.. It seems like any normal paper.. I did put in lots of effort.. all i ever get for being one class rep is unhappiness and scoldings.

I hate the way some of them talk to me. hello. here i am trying to do sth and u dont show ur appreciation and thats it. u dont hav to give any stupid comments. i don need it. u think its easy to be a class rep. I let u have it. i gave u a simple role u can complain. what about mine. did anyone ever show some sympathy for me. u dont hav to go round sayin how pitiful u can get.

forget it. I try to control not going into fire. but u left me with no choice. if one day i tolerate enough. you shall get it from me. get lost. what the hell. go away. what the fuck u want. I am vulgar here. i am angry. i want to show my anger.

Enough of it. People only get me depressed. I don want to mention anymore.

Everyday i come home with orders and orders. Its hard to get things done. I don understand why is dere so many things to do. I tried to do it and no one appreciates my effort. If they do, they give me comments which is like.. ARGH.. don wan to mention.. ITS NOT EASY to ever be a class rep.. I also dont know why i got tons of work from mona chew.

School ends at mostly 3 which is already considered early. And I reach home its like damn late. And the whole lot of time i am just sleeping on the bus hating to get up. Just want to sleep all the way. And we have that instinct that when its near my stop i will get up but i missed quite a few times. I carnt help. I am too tired. really going overworked.

I think I am going to be sick soon. A flu is coming up plus a sore throat plus backaches.

I think most probably i get retained this year. I carnt catch up on anything. And the people around me are so hiong. I am damn scared. but what to do? I dont have time. I need enough sleep as well. How on earth do i manage my time?

I am tired. really breaking down. Even encouraging words mean nothing. How to get myself out of this fix? and how can i have enough sleep.

I think i am damn stressed. And I just dont feel like studying. SELF DISCIPLINE. I know!! but i jus carnt carry out.

And typing out fiercely.. hitting down the keyboard so hard.. I dont know what to do..

I know everyone around me is stressed as well.

Go away. The moment i stepped into my house. the laughter seems to gone. I seems like a living corpse. The moment i reached home.. I turned stressed..

All the nightmares i get is retaining. retaining and RETAINING. oh god. damn stressed.

Forget it. Dont comment.