Tonight.
I lost.
I dont intend to say anything but i really cant see this anymore longer. I cant take it. We tried. We did tried our best to make you feel better. We put ourselves in your shoes. We spared a thought for you but have you? I seriously dont understand why must we do this. I seriously dont care but bcos we respect you. we're all friends. but have you? you're making life difficult for me. and you're getting me irritated. Initially i thought you're someone that i can really befriend and trust. but why do you wanna make things so hard for me? You can ask me not to waste your effort. you can tease me in front of him. you can do things that seems so heroic. but since you can be so heroic, why cant you accept all that? You tell me aint you acting hero? You can seems to almost let go and why are you doing all those so childish things. we consider your feelings and i cant possibly already communicate that much. you know it hurts me terribly. i admit defeat. can you let me off now. i really don wanna care you but bcos of respect as a friend. listen up; i am not happy. and i look down on you. tell me and ask yourself. what are you doing? you think you're in drama? and you get angry; why cant i? you are just someone so immature and dont know how to think. you're darn and real selfish. you only care for yourself. and it really hurts you know. this whole world not only you will be the only one getting hurt. what about people around you? i dont wanna mention anymore but i cant take it. it is damn hurting to me as well. can you wake up and be more sensible? it would be best if you can read my post. if you cant, then let me vent all my anger out. you dont know the beautiful term of a relationship or having feelings for someone. dont ruin the beautiful term. and honestly if i had to be that mean, i dont like the way you do things and the way you present yourself. i thought we can be good friends and you chose it that way so im fine with it. i really had a not bad impression of you in the past. i know i cant and have no right to say anything about you because im the one who hurts you badly but can you please understand. i cant even get close to someone i like when you're around. he's so afraid of hurting you or adding salt to your wound. but if you get to know, you'll probably think hes shit and hes jus pretending or im just siding him. can you open ur eyes wide enough to realise the wonders of life. dont forever revolve around emo. are you emotionally deprived? why are you adding pathos in your so called tragedy and making it seems so pathetic. can you please grow up and learn how to be a man. you know what i really detest abhor irritated pissed off disgusted by what you are doing right now. i know i shouldnt do this. i have no right or a say in what you are doing. but like you, i shared the same sentiments. i know its morally not right but i cant help feeling it this way what. i use the word-hate;too. cos similarly like you. you know its morally not right but you still hate me so i can tell you i shared the same sentiments as you. i aint care whether you like or what because you're pushing me off my limit. i dont care anymore. this is my blog. i type what i like. i dont care whatever whoever what are you guys thinking. why shiping is like that but can you try to be understandable. i need to keep my distance. i wanted to care. wanted to ask but i fear. in the end, i took courage to approach but because of you; everything felt colder than it was. i have my right. we kept distance. and i dont wanna bring up this bcos it seems so unreasonable to add on to his burden. i dont want to add on his stress. i would be so inconsiderate to do so but i cant hide. i am feeling unhappy. it hurts quite bad. and tell me what should i do? why cant we be like good friends in the past when i really felt you're true and sincere. i thought i could keep this friend. but if you wanna make everything so difficult, making everyone so embarrased then forget it. if you can do such heroic acts, it shows you can take it what; and a sign for me to hav more courage to step forward. it almost seems like your approval when i dont even need your approval. bcos i dont have any intention to hurt you. and if you cant take it, then don do these kind of things. you can get the wrong idea so do i. okay, i still need to thank you. i thank you for being there when i fell badly. thanks for not letting me collapse but im sorry if i ever let you misunderstand. i still believe you're true just dont know how to face when it comes to obstacles. and i jus hope you learn. im not saying that im so great or whatever but thats what i know. you're a good friend and hope you keep it that way. i hope you open up so i hope one day you would be fine. and i want to tell you, i want to be myself. i want to be shiping and i never liked pretending so i am not going to pretend or fake anymore. i'll be myself around everyone. i wont purposely hide. its very hard and tough for me to do so and its so hurting. i wouldnt want it. i hope you understand. not purposely to spite or what. i hate complications. very much so i just want to make everything as simple as possible. if you're still feeling anger in you; i guessed i wasted my time. it is never good to keep anger in you. it is never good to even have a temper. if no one ever told you, liked i said before. you seriously need to change your attitude. it would really benefit in future. you can ignore it but you'll suffer in future. no one asked for a change in order to click well. didnt ask you to change for us but for yourself. be happier. life's beautiful.
i lost. defeated completely. i didnt know what to do. i'm at a loss. im confused. i dont wanna hide myself but i dont know what is good. my sky is a little grey today; and my heart is the season of fall. maybe thats why these days, rain never stopped. i popped my head out of the window tonight, i really can hear peace. i hear nothing complicated. no complications. no noise. the pitter patter silent raindrops. i heard peace. i feel calm but the rain is pathetic. heaven add a lot of pathos for this rain. i feel like screaming. let the rain fall down and wake my dreams. let it wash away my sainity. i wanted heaven to take me away that moment. life's nothing but full of pathos and a certain time of rainbows. we all seemed to have lost our ways to rainbow paradise.
i wanted to be away. a paradise would be good. i kept thinking i rather be an eskimo who sat on ice cubes and fish whole day or poor villagers who roam ard the fields and explore the jungles or a farmer who plant rice and root them in the soil. i would fished for my simple life; would roam ard for happiness and explore my simplicity; would plant my simplicity and root my happiness down.
i wanna go crazy right now tonight. i want to shut down tonight.
can you protect me tonight. can you keep me from the rain tonight. can you stop me from feeling vulnerable.
I dont intend to say anything but i really cant see this anymore longer. I cant take it. We tried. We did tried our best to make you feel better. We put ourselves in your shoes. We spared a thought for you but have you? I seriously dont understand why must we do this. I seriously dont care but bcos we respect you. we're all friends. but have you? you're making life difficult for me. and you're getting me irritated. Initially i thought you're someone that i can really befriend and trust. but why do you wanna make things so hard for me? You can ask me not to waste your effort. you can tease me in front of him. you can do things that seems so heroic. but since you can be so heroic, why cant you accept all that? You tell me aint you acting hero? You can seems to almost let go and why are you doing all those so childish things. we consider your feelings and i cant possibly already communicate that much. you know it hurts me terribly. i admit defeat. can you let me off now. i really don wanna care you but bcos of respect as a friend. listen up; i am not happy. and i look down on you. tell me and ask yourself. what are you doing? you think you're in drama? and you get angry; why cant i? you are just someone so immature and dont know how to think. you're darn and real selfish. you only care for yourself. and it really hurts you know. this whole world not only you will be the only one getting hurt. what about people around you? i dont wanna mention anymore but i cant take it. it is damn hurting to me as well. can you wake up and be more sensible? it would be best if you can read my post. if you cant, then let me vent all my anger out. you dont know the beautiful term of a relationship or having feelings for someone. dont ruin the beautiful term. and honestly if i had to be that mean, i dont like the way you do things and the way you present yourself. i thought we can be good friends and you chose it that way so im fine with it. i really had a not bad impression of you in the past. i know i cant and have no right to say anything about you because im the one who hurts you badly but can you please understand. i cant even get close to someone i like when you're around. he's so afraid of hurting you or adding salt to your wound. but if you get to know, you'll probably think hes shit and hes jus pretending or im just siding him. can you open ur eyes wide enough to realise the wonders of life. dont forever revolve around emo. are you emotionally deprived? why are you adding pathos in your so called tragedy and making it seems so pathetic. can you please grow up and learn how to be a man. you know what i really detest abhor irritated pissed off disgusted by what you are doing right now. i know i shouldnt do this. i have no right or a say in what you are doing. but like you, i shared the same sentiments. i know its morally not right but i cant help feeling it this way what. i use the word-hate;too. cos similarly like you. you know its morally not right but you still hate me so i can tell you i shared the same sentiments as you. i aint care whether you like or what because you're pushing me off my limit. i dont care anymore. this is my blog. i type what i like. i dont care whatever whoever what are you guys thinking. why shiping is like that but can you try to be understandable. i need to keep my distance. i wanted to care. wanted to ask but i fear. in the end, i took courage to approach but because of you; everything felt colder than it was. i have my right. we kept distance. and i dont wanna bring up this bcos it seems so unreasonable to add on to his burden. i dont want to add on his stress. i would be so inconsiderate to do so but i cant hide. i am feeling unhappy. it hurts quite bad. and tell me what should i do? why cant we be like good friends in the past when i really felt you're true and sincere. i thought i could keep this friend. but if you wanna make everything so difficult, making everyone so embarrased then forget it. if you can do such heroic acts, it shows you can take it what; and a sign for me to hav more courage to step forward. it almost seems like your approval when i dont even need your approval. bcos i dont have any intention to hurt you. and if you cant take it, then don do these kind of things. you can get the wrong idea so do i. okay, i still need to thank you. i thank you for being there when i fell badly. thanks for not letting me collapse but im sorry if i ever let you misunderstand. i still believe you're true just dont know how to face when it comes to obstacles. and i jus hope you learn. im not saying that im so great or whatever but thats what i know. you're a good friend and hope you keep it that way. i hope you open up so i hope one day you would be fine. and i want to tell you, i want to be myself. i want to be shiping and i never liked pretending so i am not going to pretend or fake anymore. i'll be myself around everyone. i wont purposely hide. its very hard and tough for me to do so and its so hurting. i wouldnt want it. i hope you understand. not purposely to spite or what. i hate complications. very much so i just want to make everything as simple as possible. if you're still feeling anger in you; i guessed i wasted my time. it is never good to keep anger in you. it is never good to even have a temper. if no one ever told you, liked i said before. you seriously need to change your attitude. it would really benefit in future. you can ignore it but you'll suffer in future. no one asked for a change in order to click well. didnt ask you to change for us but for yourself. be happier. life's beautiful.
i lost. defeated completely. i didnt know what to do. i'm at a loss. im confused. i dont wanna hide myself but i dont know what is good. my sky is a little grey today; and my heart is the season of fall. maybe thats why these days, rain never stopped. i popped my head out of the window tonight, i really can hear peace. i hear nothing complicated. no complications. no noise. the pitter patter silent raindrops. i heard peace. i feel calm but the rain is pathetic. heaven add a lot of pathos for this rain. i feel like screaming. let the rain fall down and wake my dreams. let it wash away my sainity. i wanted heaven to take me away that moment. life's nothing but full of pathos and a certain time of rainbows. we all seemed to have lost our ways to rainbow paradise.
i wanted to be away. a paradise would be good. i kept thinking i rather be an eskimo who sat on ice cubes and fish whole day or poor villagers who roam ard the fields and explore the jungles or a farmer who plant rice and root them in the soil. i would fished for my simple life; would roam ard for happiness and explore my simplicity; would plant my simplicity and root my happiness down.
i wanna go crazy right now tonight. i want to shut down tonight.
can you protect me tonight. can you keep me from the rain tonight. can you stop me from feeling vulnerable.
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