the figure always at the com
It is amazing.
The strong-like character outside me actually admit defeat.
All these days had been complaining and whining about going all the way to tekong for sending my brother off. I kept saying no need ask me go all the way to tekong. wasting time only and its not like i wouldnt see him ever again. and i keep complaining that mum forced me to go. and i really dont wish to go because its troublesome.
and i went today.
i took it as a form of experience and realised many things.
I even went on thinking what if im enlisted for army.. who would go to send me off?
but there is only 5 tickets. and then am i gonna shout yes sir and swear my oath.
and to endure all kinds of tortures.. so many obstacles.
and it is already a big step to a different life..
a boy to a man. to manhood.
I kept thinking. I am not upset either.
It is a path that all man must go through.
This is life. and my very own brother must go thru as well.
But the fact is my own brother.
From a noisy childish crazy funny boy..
what is he gonna change to?
I rather he keep disturbing me sometimes actually.
Wondering how could he adapt to all these hardships.
How have he cope?
He wasnt always away not at home.
and probably the first time hes going on a different route.
so long from my family.
wondering what could it have change.
i am having many different mixed feelings.
how is it gonna be different?
went home. pitch darkness.
I didnt bring my keys with me.
but right now.
there isnt this figure who always sit at the com.
the figure who would take a long time to open the door
the figure who would complain non stop about me with no keys
the figure who will stomp his feets to the door and show me attitude.
the figure who never off his computer and slowing my internet speed down.
many many images of this figure in the house.
somehow feeling different in this empty dark house.
some presence of that figure in the house would not make the house so empty so dark.
hahha and the figure is at tekong training for 6 packs!
I wonder will he really get that a not.. LETS SEE!! hahha
the figure at the computer isnt there anymore.
The strong-like character outside me actually admit defeat.
All these days had been complaining and whining about going all the way to tekong for sending my brother off. I kept saying no need ask me go all the way to tekong. wasting time only and its not like i wouldnt see him ever again. and i keep complaining that mum forced me to go. and i really dont wish to go because its troublesome.
and i went today.
i took it as a form of experience and realised many things.
I even went on thinking what if im enlisted for army.. who would go to send me off?
but there is only 5 tickets. and then am i gonna shout yes sir and swear my oath.
and to endure all kinds of tortures.. so many obstacles.
and it is already a big step to a different life..
a boy to a man. to manhood.
I kept thinking. I am not upset either.
It is a path that all man must go through.
This is life. and my very own brother must go thru as well.
But the fact is my own brother.
From a noisy childish crazy funny boy..
what is he gonna change to?
I rather he keep disturbing me sometimes actually.
Wondering how could he adapt to all these hardships.
How have he cope?
He wasnt always away not at home.
and probably the first time hes going on a different route.
so long from my family.
wondering what could it have change.
i am having many different mixed feelings.
how is it gonna be different?
went home. pitch darkness.
I didnt bring my keys with me.
but right now.
there isnt this figure who always sit at the com.
the figure who would take a long time to open the door
the figure who would complain non stop about me with no keys
the figure who will stomp his feets to the door and show me attitude.
the figure who never off his computer and slowing my internet speed down.
many many images of this figure in the house.
somehow feeling different in this empty dark house.
some presence of that figure in the house would not make the house so empty so dark.
hahha and the figure is at tekong training for 6 packs!
I wonder will he really get that a not.. LETS SEE!! hahha
the figure at the computer isnt there anymore.
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