[[ what now? ]]

[[ what now? ]]

basically..Im in a pretty alrite mood.. things happen.. things end..

many things happen recently.. say too much also quite useless.. my parents quarrelled again.. mum's left dere crying.. dad's not coming home.. all those happenings and happenings.. thank god i am still fine.. still as strong as ever..

now is my march holidays.. I went to look for a job and carmen intro me to her b.u.m equipment so i could at least earn some money or else i am so tight recently.. and it just so happens that today is my first day of work.. and i woke up too early..way too early due to some stuff and reason.. Hope everthin turns out right later on..

I dont mind working actually.. and i think its rather fun to work.. my parents got to kill me if they even know about it.. I am going to do "project" later on.. hahahas.. I got to make new frens and even more frens.. and I jus like the feeling..

probably.. if someone dont let you do something.. and you didnt try before... you might be curious.. and the more you want to do it.. thats probably how i felt..

what actually happen over the days were too long to even mention.. in school.. still skipping lectures and play cards.. as i had notice.. YJ is a gambling school.. everywhere you go.. you see ppl playin cards.. though will get serious consequences..people still play..

I lost money.. won money.. and life still goes on like that..

perhaps with my temp class.. I am portrayed as a crazy and noisy girl... Its hard to show my quiet side.. and with my permanent class.. I am portrayed as a quiet girl.. i guess so.. Its not hard to show my noisy side.. its impossible.. It just dont comes.. quiet is good.. I don mind rather being crazy all times long..

I made a lot of friends in YJ.. but they doesnt really bother bout me.. probably the next time i see them.. we are strangers back still.. too many too many names to remember.. and too many too many faces i carnt rmb..

I dont have that natural friendship bond with people.. some people they do.. just like ren yuan hao.. I have to personally make some effort and donate to the friendship bank..

And our temp class.. getting back to orientation first day.. back to square.. everyone split within the just 2 months.. I mean we dont want and dont really mean it but then.. we had our own paths to walk.. own thinkings to do.. jus like at the crossroads where we walked different ways..

Thats life. Couldnt help but feel a little wasted.

[[ anti-guys ]]

And 1 more thing.. I simply couldnt stand the guys nowadays.. irritating morons.. they are so evil and it really make me mad..

Girls are the most foolish creatures on earth.

Guys could make the world of theirs fly up and the next moment crash all the way down.. why would this thing call love ever appear in our lives..

They could be so nice.. jus like the pretentious wolves.. and do stuff that make girls misunderstand and when they doesnt even like the girl.. and by that time.. the girls had already fallen deep.. what the hell.. basically all guys sucks..

Its my point of view right now. My friends are all having relationship problems and i could simply do nothing about it.. so many of them.. hurt deeply.. and i am helpess.. what advice i can give? and their questions were all so tough.. and everyone bothered with his question of love right now.. what the hell.. why? guys are simply pigs and idiots.

_I+don+want+to+fall+in+love+ever+again__Itjushurtssomuch_

And it links to me in the end.

And i couldnt tell them to let go and they will let go easilly.. Its hard.. I couldnt do anything at all.. everyone coming to me telling me about their problems.. and i couldnt do anything.. I couldnt help.. even those advices its hard to think of even a soulution..

How i wish i can help everyone but i couldnt.

the only thing i could do.. is just that be dere and listen..and the rest is up to them.. but probably they wont read my blog.. so much for nothing..

[[ One in the world ]]

yes. one in the world. may all be just misunderstandings.. be all past.. there is only one in the world.. jus be patient and wait.. It just happens to make u stronger.. thank them.. thank those who u love.. they help you to be strong.. to cultivate ur patience.. and everything.. thank them..

thats the most i can do and say.