Monday, September 26, 2005

-guardianangel (:

guardianangel (:
do you still remember?
the game of guardian angel.
it is no longer a person's memories

the future might be sad or happy
i will embrace you tightly and
never let you cry out of love

even if the sky is left with one last flickering star,
i will let it shine on for you.
you will feel continous happiness
one day you will see the star
that is my heart
standing by you..

beurguardianangel. (:

Shiping's edition of guardian angel. oh well.

shippie and ruzzie went to science centre today. (:
shippie suddenly felt like gging and so we went!
shippie felt happy! thanks for that, ruzzie!

anywhere you go.. i'll go too..

feelingquitedamnfucked.
dontknowwhybut people add me to their msn.
super irritating. within a day, i was added 5 times and 3 talked to me.
i blocked the other 2 already.
freaking strangers stop irritate me.
dont bug me lar.
bugger shit and everything.

damn pissed.

school's hell.

i cant wait for everything to be over.
and then holidays!

Sunday, September 25, 2005

guardianangel (:

guardianangel (:
i realised this is a dummy blog. i din blog for super long.

whats more?

i love my rfc family.
we got into some lil troubled but everthing is solved.
hope to ally with 5lonelyguysandamidget!
no one will be lonely!
we're happy family!!!

the story of aku.
aku is rfc's pet.
aku is a green lil super cute praying mantis.
im so afraid of insects but aku's real cute.
aku is my name.

rfc's cork. super lame.
i thought people in jc are matured.
till when i went for ny open house.
i saw one guy pushing another guy on the trolley ard the track.
i paused i thought.

and then i got into YJC.
even worst.
basically rfc can think of what people cant think of.

we have another pet called roggy.
roggy's a very tiny fish taken from yjc's lib pond.
but he died 3 days after self-starvation.

and a newest pet called kuku.
found in yj's field.
kuku's a beetle.
super ugly one.

we love aku.
aku fought with 2 spiders and won!
he ate them all. =O

but seriously..
I still dont know why..
RFC can find so many insects in school?

Aku will never starve to death at all.

hahha and on shiqi's celebration! she got a whole entire sex kit.
hahha and i missed out on it.
but still..
SHIQI, HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY!!! stay happy happy (: loves ya lots!!

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

whycantyoujust.

wannarunaway.

sat down in jeans and a tee shirt.
worn my contacts.
been waiting since three.
no. been waiting to go out at three.

the clock nearing four.
been waiting since half past nine since i woke up.
had been surfing net, watching the tv.
what more can i do?

waited and waited.
jus like yesterday.
waiting for nothing.

trying on my best clothes.
and then got a lil disappointed.
ouch.

and today.
ouch.
feel like running away.

i feel like running away.
and i wanna run away.

-shhiippiinngg.-

why cant you.
all i ever wanted.
all i ever ask of you.
really wished you're here.
feeling cold and terrible.
how many really must i say.

ionlywishedyou'rehere.
whycantyoujust.
ireallyandonlywishedforthat.
whycantyoujust.

Thatsalliaskedofyou.

thatsalliaskedofyou.

No more talk of darkness
Forget these wide-eyed fears
I'm here, nothing can harm you
My words will warm and calm you
Let me be your freedom
Let daylight dry your tears
I'm here, with you, beside you
To guard you and to guide you

Say you'll love me every waking moment
Turn my head with talk of summer time
Say you need me with you now and always
Promise me that all you say is true
That's all I ask of you

Let me be your shelter
Let me be your light
You're safe, no one will find you
Your fears are far behind you

All I want is freedom
A world with no more night
And you, always beside me
To hold me and to hide me

Then say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime
Let me lead you from your solitude
Say you need me with you here, beside you
Anywhere you go, let me go too that's all I ask of you

Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime
Say the word and I will follow you

Share each day with me, each night, each morning

Say you love me
You know I do

Love me, that's all I ask of you
Anywhere you go, let me go too
Love me, that's all I ask of you

wishedyou'reherenow.withme.
thatsalliaskedofyou.

sshhippiinngg.
heyy peeps.. i carnt tagg so spare me uh!!
not very sure why..
im really okayy.
was quite down actually yesterday.
sick mah.. normal okayy..

thanks shiqi for that talk last night (:

was feeling so loved!
everyone so concerned with me.
my aunt cook food that i can eat.
my friends asked me to get well soon.

and my parents esp my dad.
i was eating my dinner with no appetite last night.
and i told my dad. he kept asked me to drink more water.
and then he touched my forehead.
at the moment i really wanted to cry.

and then my mum returns.
asked me to sleep early.
let me sleep on her bed when im sweating like shit.

and of course not forgetting him larr (:

im really okayy now. feeling much more better (:

i went to see a doc ytd.
went all the way to tamp polyclinic myself.
i didnt want to call anyone bcos i wanted to go home to rest after that.
so went alone.

i should better get to work soon.
everyday at home will only make me be more like garfield.
garfield-ish.

I saw your face in a crowded place.
And I don't think that I'll see you again.

you turned and smiled at me. (:

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

afinetuesday.

skippedschooltoday.
dontworrylarr.
wasntfeelingtoogood.
notangrynotsad.
jusalildisappointed.
ouch.
cos'igavemyselftoomuchhope.
itsanatualreaction.
aslongasitshumans.
willgetalildisappointed.
butimreallyokayy.
dontworrysomuchokayy.

istillcantastethenoodles.
beingsickisntreallyagoodthing.
butatleastidongetsostressful.
wasfeelingbetteralready.
notreallyverysick.
notsoexaggerating.
wasntdyingatall.

(:

Sunday, September 11, 2005


3e3 reunited!!! with casse. miss this class lots. hahha.. cheers to randy..~~ Posted by Picasa

we're at heeren! it was a friday night in town. and we took it in heeren. daring. hahha it was fun! Posted by Picasa

the day when randy returns and we're in town. everyone with nice clothes and im wearing some stupid yj uniform. boo hoo! Posted by Picasa

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

we believe/ rfc.

we believe.

I know you will.
I can feel it.

I don need someone who will never make me cry.

I need someone who can make me cry and stop my tears.
I need someone who can make me smile like i never smile before.

so dont say that again.
dont lemme go.
dont lemme find the someone who will never make me cry.
you're the one. you're still the one.

I start to grow more confident.
I start to feel it. feel your love. getting stronger.

we believe. we believe. we believe.
we believe. we believe. we believe.

we believe in this love.

i believe in you.

im sorry. im behaving like a kid in front of you.
but its alright. you are childish too. =P

somehow i understand. understand all the stress you're gging thru now.
sorry for the past. i've been too shallow. too childish.
i understand perfectly.

ands i never like what tom dick harry.

send someone to love me.
keep me safe.
in the pouring rain.

if only we can live twice.

___________________________________________________

rogerfanclub.rfc.inc.

thats my family in yj. forever doing the corks stuff.
and we are the biggest family in yj. =D
feeling so loved. ha ha ha.

we.. doing that thing we do..
that corks we do..

they are really special.
they never make me stop smiling and laughing.
they make my day.
they rocks.

you can never imagine what things they do.
so corkanathan and i never had so much laughter.

if one day shiping is sad,
the moment she sees rfc,
she will start smiling and laughing.
its hard. its hard to even frown in front of dem.

and now rfc is mugging.
in the library.. eating fries.. studying.. mugging..
ang mo kio-ing.

rfc, you are the best!
you guys will leave the best memories behind.
and when i look back,
i will still laugh at our jokes.

i cannot retain! i want to promote with rfc.
shiping cannot retain!!!

we can.

Saturday, September 03, 2005


spastic man!! everyone with different styles.. damn cool.. wad wenjia doing man.. me and bertha got tt fakko smile.. wads youyi and shiqi doing? and paulin lols.. her face damn funny... and where the hell zeb looking? got handsome mehs? and look at rebecca face.. LOLS!!!!!! wth!!!! HAHHA DAMN CUTE!! >.< Posted by Picasa

dao.. act cool man.. aniwaes damn nice... the guys got their candid shot.. bertha with her phone.. den shiqi!!! this is not 007 shot!! see the in front row.. DAO Man!! Posted by Picasa

wHoooo wHeeeeEe.. nice!! Posted by Picasa

Friday, September 02, 2005


RogerFanClub. RFC!! seriously i love them all. they rocks my life. (= Posted by Picasa

lols. this is so damn funny. this bunch rocks. (: Posted by Picasa

Bunch of corks.  Posted by Picasa

Thursday, September 01, 2005

The young and the old.

Happy Birthday to Jun Nan and Rebecca =D

[[ the young and the old ]]

Remember...They love UNCONDITIONALLY.....

When I was a puppy, I entertained you with my antics and made you laugh. You called me your child, and despite a number of chewed shoes and a couple of murdered throw pillows, I became your best friend.

Whenever I was "bad," you'd shake your finger at me and ask "How could you?" -- but then you'd relent and roll me over for a bellyrub. My housebreaking took a little longer than expected, because you were terribly busy, but we worked on that together.

I remember those nights of nuzzling you in bed and listening to your confidences and secret dreams, and I believed that life could not be any more perfect. We went for long walks and runs in the park, car rides,stops for ice cream (I only got the cone because "ice cream is bad for dogs" you said), and I took long naps in the sun waiting for you to come home at the end of the day.

Gradually, you began spending more time at work and on your career, and more time searching for a human mate. I waited for you patiently, comforted you through heartbreaks and disappointments, never chided you about bad decisions, and romped with glee at your homecomings, and when you fell in love.

She, now your wife, is not a "dog person" -- still I welcomed her into our home, tried to show her? affection, and obeyed her. I was happy because you were happy.

Then the human babies came along and I shared your excitement. I was fascinated by their pinkness, how they smelled, and I wanted to mother them, too. Only she and you worried that I might hurt them, and I spent most of my time banished to another room, or to a dog crate. Oh, how I wanted to love them, but I became a "prisoner of love."

As they began to grow, I became their friend. They clung to my fur and pulled themselves up on wobbly legs, poked fingers in my eyes, investigated my ears, and gave me kisses on my nose.loved everything about them and their touch -- because your touch was now so infrequent -- and I would've defended them with my life if need be. I would sneak into their beds and listen to their worries and secret dreams, and together we waited for the sound of your car in the driveway.

There had been a time, when others asked you if you had a dog, that you produced a photo of me from your wallet and told them stories about me. These past few years, you just answered "yes" and changed the subject. I had gone from being "your dog" to "just a dog," and you resented every expenditure on my behalf.

Now, you have a new career opportunity in another city, and you and they will be moving to an apartment that does not allow pets. You've made the right decision for your "family," but there was a time when I was your only family.

I was excited about the car ride until we arrived at the animal shelter. It smelled of dogs and cats, of fear, of hopelessness. You filled out the paperwork and said "I know you will find a good home for her." They shrugged and gave you a pained look. They understand the realities facing a middle-aged dog, even one with "papers."

You had to pry your son's fingers loose from my collar as he screamed "No, Daddy! Please don't let them take my dog!" And I worried for him, and what lessons you had just taught him about friendship and loyalty, about love and responsibility, and about respect for all life. You gave me a good-bye pat on the head, avoided my eyes, and politely refused to take my collar and leash with you.You had a deadline to meet and now I have one, too.After you left, the two nice ladies said you probably knew about your upcoming move months ago and made no attempt to find me another good home. They shook their heads and asked "How could you?"

They are as attentive to us here in the shelter as their busy schedules allow. They feed us,of course, but I lost my appetite days ago.At first, whenever anyone passed my pen, I rushed to the front, hoping it was you that you had changed your mind -- that this was all a bad dream... or I hoped it would at least be someone who cared, anyone who might save me.

When I realized I could not compete with the frolicking for attention of happy puppies, oblivious to their own fate, I retreated to a far corner and waited. I heard her footsteps as she came for me at the end of the day, and I padded along the aisle after her to a separate room.

A blissfully quiet room. She placed me on the table and rubbed my ears, and told me not to worry. My heart pounded in anticipation of what was to come, but there was also a sense of relief. The prisoner of love had run out of days. As is my nature, I was more concerned about her. The burden which she bears weighs heavily on her, and I know that, the same way I knew your every mood.

She gently placed a tourniquet around my foreleg as a tear ran down her cheek. I licked her hand in the same way I used to comfort you so many years ago. She expertly slid the hypodermic needle into my vein. As I felt the sting and the cool liquid coursing through my body, I lay down sleepily, looked into her kind eyes and murmured "How could you?"

Perhaps because she understood my dogspeak, she said "I'm so sorry." She hugged me, and hurriedly explained it was her job to make sure I went to a better place, where I wouldn't be ignored or abused or abandoned, or have to fend for myself -- a place of love and light so very different from this earthly place.

And with my last bit of energy, I tried to convey to her with a thump of my tail that my "How could you?" was not directed at her. It was directed at you, My Beloved Master, I was thinking of you. I will think of you and wait for you forever. May everyone in your life continue to show you so much loyalty.

Remember...They love UNCONDITIONALLY, If you give them LOVE.

____________________________________________________________

I was doing my written report. project on cruelty to pets. was browing the web of SPCA when i came across this article in dere.

definitely, i was touched by this article. please don abuse animals.
was feeling too lost for words. feel so sad for these animals.

DONT ABUSE ANIMALS.

no one can imagine how much i miss my black and white.
those lovely 2 rabbits of mine.
where are they i don even know.
black's in heaven. when he was brought away, he died.

I regretted it.
i really miss them.

but it would be better with others than me perhaps.

im only 16. and im behaving like a 60.
I wanted to go back to the past everyday.

i wanted to rewind everything.
the days of innocent minds.
where we give everyone we know our purest love
and only wanted to be loved back.
we were easilly touched and moved.
we have feelings.
we were innocent.
we cried.
we meant no harm.
everyone is so nice.
though we were childish
but we're pure.
we were kind.
we laughed so innocently.
we don backstab.
we are the way we are.
we are simple.
we live our life simply.
we love we care we give
totally almost unconditionally.

and how each living things came into my life,
and how they left.
and how i cried for them.

I cried for my countless maids they left me after 2 years of bonding.
I cried for each single one even if they scold me always.
I cried when we promised to write back. but eventually they didnt.
and how many years i were left there cheated in some way.
all i want to do is to keep in contact with u almost harmlessly. unconditionally.
How many years of my innocent days in years that i got cheated.
yet every year i still wished they wrote to me.
but they didnt.

thats adults and kids. the difference.

why must we be adults?
why must we have the thinkings
that once someone who walked out of ur life will be gone forever.

I pondered over it when i was young. and now im sooning turning an adult.
It doesnt matter anymore.

I didnt cried for my last maid. She went just like that.

I had 3 rabbits.
I love the smallest one. It licks me so sweetly. and i really love it.
But it soon died when it arrived.
I cried like shit.
It was young. and innocent.

the other 2 rabbits lived with me thru years.
but they were older.
they didnt look at me so innocently.
they don lick me like the young one.
and i was in the growing years.
they left. i didnt cry like so bad before.

I once had this ugly lil fish.
it was dying. i saw it.
i stick on to a chair and watched it over the hours.
It was struggling in my dad's fish tank.
I prayed and prayed.
when my dad came back, i plead him to buy medicine.
he did. but the fish still died eventually.
I was young. I cried so badly.

Thats the difference. Wheres our young and innocent hearts?

Thats why i hate growing up.
Feelings changed.

we turned more practical and we put feelings aside.
what are we actually?
what are we make of?
from true blood to cold blood.
is that what we are?

It doesnt matter with the childishness.
but the feelings remains.
the feelings that is priceless.
so priceless.

and don abuse pets.
it jus stirs my feelings up.
at least when coming to animals,
have the young thought in ur mind..